Mania is not my friend

Not because of the extra energy it's given me, because i actually love that feeling. I like actually having the energy to keep up with my kids, and my house, without feeling like crap at the end of the day. I've still got a lot of things i need to do tonight, and i have a feeling it won't be difficult to get them all done in a relatively quick time period.

But it's the racing thoughts that get me the most. It's the lack of sleep that lasts sometimes for days and days. It's the physical exaustion when everything is said and done.

right now, my mind is raceing about a lot of things that i really shouldn't be thinking about. If you REALLY want to know, just ask. If i trust you enough, i'll tell you. It's not worth the risk of someone reading more into a situation than is really there. We've had that happen once before, and i'd like to keep it from every happening again. That was a very frustrating period of our lives. To say the least, if it ever happens again, i'm goign to stop trusting EVERYONE, so be sure that if i DO tell you, to keep it simply at face value, or ask questions if you are concerned. i won't lie to you if i tell you, believe me. It's not worth it.

I need to clean the living room, cook dinner, wake Ruben up, and get Ivy's stuff set out for tomorrow. I like to have her clothes and lunch and backpack set out and ready to go so that we aren't fighting with them in the morning just in case i sleep late, ya know? So yeah. I need to get off the computer and do that. I might type more later.