People suck

I swear, sometimes i think the universe is out to destroy any good moment i might be having. And it comes when i finally hit a high point. I think that's why i am always so scared when things start going ok.

This morning started on a blah note. Ruben got his garnishment papers up at work. No idea when they are supposed to start, or how much they are going to take out, but blah. Ok, we can overcome that, no biggie. We've survived on far less. Then we had to fight with the computers, trying to get things to fit right, work right, etc, etc. Kind of a pain, but whatever. We managed to get it to work ok in the end, so it's no biggie.

Then we had a good moment. Some good times in the bedroom. Yeah yeah, i know TMI. But then we come out and Ruben checks his e-mail. And that's when the bad people sucking comes in. Someone hacked my facebook account, had a sexual conversation with someone, and then forwarded it to Ruben. How am i supposed to handle that one? I mean, i can't prove that it wasn't me. He says he trusts me, and that it just brought up some bad memories of stuff i did a long time ago, but he's acting like he believes it was me. I didn't do it. PERIOD. The person it was supposedly with i have no feelings whatsoever with . NONE. Even the thought makes me feel a little sick, ugh. NOT KOOL! So i just don't know how the evening is going to go. I hope he knows it wasn't me, and that i would never do anything like that ever again. It means to much to me. Maybe i can write something, or draw something, or something like that that really shows how i feel. I guess we will see what happens, but it really sucks.

At least Christmas is gonna ROCK. Come hell or high water, we will make it awesome. :) Got lots under the tree, and we will spend some awesome family time together. Hopefully. UGH, so much emotion right now. I need a drink, or something. Too bad i promised i wouldn't do that too often. BLAH.

Ok, gonna get outta here, try to figure out what's for dinner, and clean a little. This freaking house is a disaster. :(