Tonight is Scrapbook night up at the school. And it's sad, but all I can think is "what the hell did I sign up for?" There's not a single mom up there that I really know all that well any more, and I SUCK at making new friends. And I HATE being in a room full of people I don't know. Stupid anxiety just breaks my heart, because I know there are so many things that the girls are missing out on because my anxiety holds me back. I can't wait until I can go to the doctor on a regular basis so that we can REALLY get it taken care of - and not just with meds that knock my ass out. At least my pain is pretty good today, thank goodness. :)
Then tomorrow is Friday. HOORAY FRIDAY. Yeah, it's friday the 13, but I really don't care. :) Ruben and I are gonna have a date day - FINALLY. We are gonna try to go to the art museum. Have never been, and with the girls in school it'll be a good thing to just take our time and really enjoy. :) And then tomorrow evening we are going to Family Fun night up at the zoo. Alyssa is gonna be there with her kids - which will be nice. All the kids will be able to hang out and do stuff, while the adults hang out and talk. :) Should be a pretty awesome day.
Then Saturday we are gonna go out so Ruben can mow for James and drop off his German models for him to go play a game with. :) Be nice to see them. Then that night is game night, and HOPEFULLY I can manage to stay up. HOPEFULLY. I wanna be able to play games too, haha. Even if it's just a video game with everyone, ya know? But I guess we will find out what happens. I've been passing out pretty early cause the heat kicks my butt.
Sunday is Laundry day
and then it's back to the grind, haha
I'm kind of excited though. I'm gonna start making some regular money. Not a LOT of money, but enough for me to get out and enjoy stuff while the girls are at school and Ruben is asleep. :) No idea what I'll do, but it'll be nice to be able to, ya know? Heck, even if it's just having some gas money to go to some of the pretty places I wanna go and take pics, then I'll have it. I've been trying to find some other jobs too so that I'd have more money, but it's just really hard because of the MS. Nobody wants to hire someone who can't keep up with everyone else. I've got references out the wazzoo now, but nobody even wants to look at them because they see MS and go in a "different direction". Sucks too, because it's private families - so I can't do anything about it. Oh well, Hopefully I can figure something out.
This morning I actually managed to get my room straightened up a bit. Still got a LONG way to go before it will be DONE (mainly cause we've got a HUGE pile of the girls clothes to sort and donate, and a huge pile of crap in the corner to sort into things we need to keep and things we can get rid of, and then the closet (which honestly wouldn't take THAT long if I'd get in there and do it - since most of the stuff in there is gonna be trash or donate). It's honestly more about the TIME than anything else. Hopefully I can do a little every day, and then it'll be done before long. And then I need to get started on the girls bedroom. UGH! The girls bedroom, haha. It's a cluttered mess. Gotta find SOMETHING to help organize it better. Thinking about spending a handful of dollars on foam board at the dollar tree and making some shelves and storage bins and stuff for their room. It'd be CHEAP as crap, and be able to be designed for what I need it for. Just have to see what happens with that though. HOPEFULLY I can get their bedroom completely done before Christmas break. So that gives me plenty of time as long as I actually get started working on it. Again, just gotta actually make time for it. Maybe do one tote a day of sorting, and figure out what I need to create to store it. And then actually get in there and create the stuff to store it in. :)
Ok, I've got just over an hour before scrapbook night, so I'm gonna go watch some more TV and eat something. I'll talk to all of you wonderful people later. :)
LATERS
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