Shot day, yay

You know, I really am grateful for the drug company giving me my meds for free. It would be SUPID expensive if I didn't get that help and then I wouldn't be able to get my meds.  MS meds really are stupid stupid expensive, and that makes me a little sad. Cause the people suffering through it really do need the help. I'm just thankful that Biogen works with me on it and gets it to me for free.  HOPEFULLY next year we can afford insurance so that I won't feel like I'm taking something that someone really needs.  But for now, I really need it, so I'll do what I gotta do.

 

This time of year my moods swing like crazy.  I'll be fine one day, and the next super depressed, and the next angry at everything, and the next playful like a little kid.  I'm just glad that my hubby is so understanding and is able to put up with me, cause I'm not sure how I'd handle it alone. 

 

And I have amazing friends who are really understanding too.  And who are always there to help me through when I think about doing something stupid. (not suicide, so don't even go there.  Just stupid stuff that would lead me down a really bad road).  In fact, one of my awesome friends had to do that last night.  All i wanted to do was sleep for a long time, but the way I would have done it would have been really destructive.  Too bad my brain couldn't see that, so he helped me see it, and understand it, and kept me from doing something stupid.  And for that I am eternally grateful. :)

 

Today is shot day.  Already took it, a couple hours ago. And I'm already feeling the migraine coming on.  That seriously is the worst side effect, cause it seems nothing really helps take it away.  If anybody has any ideas please let me know cause I will try anything at this point, haha. Got an easy dinner, so it shouldn't be too bad.  I just need to find the energy to clean the living room before the migraine really hits me, cause that would be exhausting to try to do it WITH the migraine, ya know?

 

Been listening to music and playing games, and having my kitten attack my feet and chew on my hands.  It's actually pretty cute.  Trying to help her stay awake during the day so that she will sleep at night, and so far we KINDA get it right, lol.  Still gotta do some work with her, and HOPEFULLY get it to where she will sleep during the night, cause we keep her in our bedroom for now until the dog can get used to her better.  I can only imagine what would happen if they got into it, cause the dog is quite a bit bigger than she is.  SOO, we are protecting her until she's a little bigger.  Think it's a pretty good idea, ya know?  But maybe I'm just being  overprotective.  IDK.

 

Gonna share some of the music I've been listening to today with ya.  :)  If you enjoy, great.  If not, I sorry.  But it's been something I do when I need to just unwind and focus on something else.

 

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Gonna share one of my poems.  Don't really remember where I got it from, but I think it was written by a friend YEARS ago.  It is really good (or at least I think so) so I'm gonna share it. :)

 

REALITY

 

Reality will always be

more harsh than it would seem

For I doubt a truly loving God

would allow a man to dream

 

For dreams are just to taunt us

of things we shant attain

and hope is just anoth lie

designed to keep us sane

 

But what's the point of living

if only to survive

one has to make a difference

for one to be alive

 

Man won't be heard screaming

and death is nothing new

but to live a life worth living

to thine own self be true

 

Jeremy Lyon

 

Whatcha think?  Pretty good if you ask me.  I don't know why, but I've held on to it for a really long time, and it helps when I'm having a bad day.  So there ya go. :)

 

Ok, Migraine is coming on, so I'm gonna go find something to distract myself.

LATER TATER