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So no big surprise, i have a cold. I swear i get at least one a year, and it always knocks me on my ass, you have no idea. Today is just one of those days where i wish it had waited a few days It's so frustrating sometimes when it decides to hit me on one the first day Ruben has off work. I wanted to get to hang out with him yesterday, and do some stuff around town, and then i had Plans with my sis in law today to go to the movies. Instead, i spent the majority of the day yesterday fighting with a sore throat, and the majority of today sleeping trying to kill the rest of this bs. I have been fighting with a balance between enough medicine to help with the symptoms, but not too much at the same time. It is exausting, so very very exausting.

So next weekend probably i will try to reschedule the movie with sis, and maybe she can help me pick out some good stuff for Ivy's birthday party too. I'm going to try to keep it super freaking cheap, because we aren't really going to have that much money as it is, but i know she deserves a good party. She's never really had one, and she's such a good girl, most of the time at least. Tonight she's really not. She's fighting us on cleaning her room without the tv on, and i'm honestly in no mood to deal with her attitude right now. I just want to get some peace and quiet and not feel so yucky. At least i'm not as bad right now as i was this morning, and hopefully it's just going to get better as the day goes on, and into the night.

Tomorrow is laundry day, and if i feel like crap, i won't feel like doing laundry, and It has to get done because it's Ivy's school clothes and Ruben's work clothes. I'm not too worried about most of the clothes i have, because i have enough to deal with everything. And Desiree does too, so it's pretty much just making sure they have enough clothes for everything. If i can at least manage to get everything finished that needs to be finished, i'll be happy, especially if i'm still feeling like this.

I am going to try really hard the next few days to get things done around the house that need to get done. I need to get our bedroom finished, and Ivy's bedroom fiished. I need to get the bathroom done, and i need to keep the kitchen and living room up because that way they are easier to get clean before Ruben's days off.

For now i need to get Ivy motivated, or asleep one, eat dinner, watch a movie or something with Ruben, and then get both girls to sleep so i can go to sleep. It is so very frustrating to have to listen to her fight it so hard, and cry so hard, and be a brat. And it doesn't help at all that Ruben keeps pushing her the way he does because then she just gets worse and worse and worse. I just want it to fucking stop, DAMN.

For now, i'm outta here.