Emotional

it's so frustrating when i am so damn emotional. I can be fine one minute, and then just moments later i can be so down and depressed that i want to curl up, cry, and sleep. I haven't been sleeping well, i haven't been eating well, i hurt from head to toe, and all i want is to just curl up and cry. I hurt so bad sometimes that it's hard to even get up and get dressed in the mornings. I think today i'm going to try to walk up and pick Ivy up from school like that. WE shall see though. If i am i need to leave here pretty soon so i can make it on time. Well, that and i don't know if it is going to rain on us. Need to check on that, lol. Cause if we are walking i'll want to leave here about 3:00 cause she gets out at 3:20 and that way we can take our time getting over there. I think it will do us good if we can. It's been a while since we went for our walks, and i can tell. I just don't feel as good as i did when we were walking every single morning. I mean, it's not doing us too good just sitting around the house all the damn time, for sure. Today i went for a walk to go pick Ivy up from school. I can tell we haven't been for a while because it wasn't even that far, and i was EXAUSTED by the time we got back. Ivy complained the entire time, but it's really awesome for me at least to get that exercise. Here soon i am going to get off my ass and get some more exercise, probably on the wii fit. Maybe the rhythm boxing, and the step stuff. Maybe make an attempt at the balance games and stuff again.



I need to get off my ass and get some ab work done cause that's what i really really want to lose the most. If i lose nothing else, but i can get back down under 30 inches around the tummy, i would be freaking happy as hell. And i know too that i need to get out and walk more. I know too that next year when we get our little extra money i'm going to get my gym membership w/ childcare so i can work out while Ivy is in school, and over the summer we can go for our walks every day again, and it should be awesome. I think it will do me some good. I am going to start taking some suppliments to help burn a little extra weight off, and hopefully when i get to feeling better i can get some good work in to lose the weight. And then i'm going to go out and get a new look or two so that i can feel good about myself again.



We went out and got the majority of the stuff for Ivy's birthday party. She has a pinyatta, we got a few things for the games, and pretty much the only thing that we need to get now is the gifts for her, and the food stuffs. I think it's going to be a good party, even if nobody else but those that have already said they are coming show up, that's still fine with me. I hope that we will get to work it out so more get to show up. I just hope that people actually let me know what's going on, cause i get sick of waiting, you know?



Neway, i am going to try to lay down and get some rest before i have to start supper and get shit done, so i will write later.