The end of time

I can tell it's getting to the end of all things around here. People are getting more and more upset over stupid little things, more bad things are happening, and it's all just building and building. It makes me wonder just how close it really is because how much worse can it really get before it's just too much? For example, with the whole religion thing going on around the net these days. People are actually trying to make Christianity the nations official language. WTF is up with that. I have nothing agains christianity, don't get me wrong, but i also don't have anything against the other religions out there either. I mean, it's not really WHAT you believe, but THAT you believe. I know that i think if you believe it hard enough, it makes it true. Belief is a funny thing, cause sometimes it's so fragile that it can be shattered with just a simple thing, and that to me is very sad. I have never really felt like organized religion is the way for ME, but for others, it is exactilly what is needed. If that's what you believe in, then all the better for you. I believe that everything is a part of the greater, and that it all deserves respect. I do believe in god, but i also believe in a goddess. I believe that Jesus christ may have been Gods son, and then if i were around when he was, that i would have believed it even more. I believe that everything in life deserves respect no matter what. Even if someone is treating you badly, there is probably a reason for it that we don't know, and we need to understand that. Man, by it's very nature is good. When something bad happens, it happens for a reason. Because someone has some mental dissorder, because someone was never taught how to handle their anger, because something terrible has happened to someoen in the past and they are trying to either cover it up or move past it. There are very few people in the world that are just bad because they want to be bad. At least, that's what i believe. I have always been kinda naive that way, but it has kept me able to forgive easier, even when something has happened over and over. It's easier for me to forgive, forget, and move on that way. These last few years i have come to realize that just because someone did something to you in the past, there is always a chance that they will change, and that they deserve that chance. For all the christians out there - Doesn't the bible say to forgive up to 77 times (and usually by then we have lost count), or that if we are struck on the right side, to turn the other instead of retaliating? I have learned a lot in my lifetime about religion, and i am still learning every single day. If you can't forgive, and forget, then you aren't being a rightious person. God created us all with free will and the ability to decide for ourselves what is right, and yes, sometimes we might make a few wrong turns, but at least they were our turns to make. If you take away that free right, then you take away a mans reason to live. You take away that one simple right, then what's the point? It's not up to you, and you have no right to judge someone. That is up to whatever higher power you might believe in. All i ask from you, is that you remember that. If you try to make decisions for someone else, you are a very close minded, small minded person, and you need to take a closer look at everything around you. It's really not as bad as you might think for someone else to believe something different from you.

Now, on to another subject. This morning i woke up feeling pretty crappy. I can tell i didn't sleep well. I woke up more exausted then i was when i fell asleep. I woke up with a headache, and i have an itchy throat, a foggy, cotton filled head, and aches and pains all over. I will try to curl back up when Desiree lays down for her nap, cause i could sure use one. Maybe i ended up having a little more to drink then i thought i did last night, lol. It was loads of fun though, and i wouldn't have changed anything about it. Lack of sleep or no, lol. Hopefully today will be as good of a day as yesterday, with one exception. That we at least get something done around the house. Cause right now, it looks like crap. I know i need to go by the bank and cash the check i got. I need to check how much is in the bank so we know what's going on. Pretty sure we are still doing really good, but we will just have to wait and see. I'll check that later.

So for now, i'm going to go get desiree something to eat, i'm going to change into some more comfy clothes, and i'm going to try to get her down for a nap here soon. Lets hope it all goes smoothly.