I HATE MONDAY

In case you didn't get it from the title - I HATE MONDAY. The first day of the week always brings so much to do and so very little time to do it in. I have a messy house this week more than usual because i was sick most of the weekend. I have laundry that needs to be put up, i have a kitchen that is a mess. It's just overwhelming sometimes. Especially when i'm emotional as hell and wanting to curl up and sleep next to my hubby for the rest of the day and i can't. I miss getting to spend time with him so much right now. It's exausting to have to deal with everything without getting much help because he's asleep during the day. He works so hard, so i can't complain to him you know? Just dealing with everything that happens around the house, on top of everything i feel physically, it's just overwhelming sometimes. And i'm betting today that Ivy is going to come home with homework, and i don't want to wait until last minute to get it done. I need to teach her to do her homework every night so that when she gets older she will be able to do it by herself.

Speaking of Ivy, i really need to get into her room and get it cleaned up so that we can keep it clean now that school is in. Maybe i can muster up enough energy to get it done today. I am betting that it won't take that long, if i could just get the energy to get started, you know? it's taking those first steps that take so much energy. We shall see, soon enough, rather or not it is going to happen. Guess i'll just have to wait and see.

I've got three hours to get something done on the house before i will have Ivy around the house too, and i want to make sure that it's at least picked up. Maybe if i can get up and around and get started i can actually get the house done so that i can keep up with it better during the week. I know i need to start setting a better example for the girls. They deserve a good mom, rather i physically feel good or not. I can't wait until next year when i can actually afford to get some health care and afford to go to the doctor and get meds to help me survive this pain in a way that is better, not only for me, but mainly for my daughters. I'm going to start pricing plans soon so that when i might actually have enough money for it i can know how much i'm looking at spending.

So yeah, i am going to get off the computer and try to get some motivation to get shit done. BLAH, blah, blah. LATERS.

LYZ