It's only 7:30, and i already want to go back to bed

I didn't quite get 8 hours of sleep, and i know i didn't every get through a whole cycle of rem, because the girls and the dog kept me up yet again. It's frustrating on a saturday night because Ruben is awake, and he could have helped me out. But if i go try to tell him, he's usually playing games with Daniel or Dave, or on his computer, or he's passed out on the couch. It's frustrating as hell because i get no help at all. When it comes to the Kids, if i'm here, they are my responsibility. He rarely steps in unless it's punishment time, and even then only when i've been trying for hours does it happen. And then i still have to keep up with the house, and the laundry, and doing dinner every night, and everything with the girls. And i do mean everything. In the mornings i have to get up and get Ivy ready, and take care of Desiree, and then take her to school, come home, deal with Ruben and Desiree more, and then finally get to Put him down to go to sleep for the day. Sometimes it's early, but more often then not, it's about noon or later, and then i don't get time with him in the morning or at night. It's no wonder that i feel so lonely all the time. It's beyond frustrating, and i just want to scream so that someone might be able to actually hear me. It feels like i'm screaming at the top of my lungs and nobody hears me, and that frustrates me even more. I keep things in so much now, because the arguments that happen just aren't worth it. It's been a while since i've gotten to go out and do something, and i can tell. I'm going stir crazy again, and add that to the depression and the lonliness, and i feel like i'm losing my mind. The last few days i have wanted to do things that i know i'm not supposed to do. I can't, and i won't, do them right now. But the urge is totally here all the time right now. Maybe it's the weather adding to the already low points in my life. I don't know for sure, and it is getting really frustrating. For now i need to get off the computer and get shit done so i'm not rushing around the house like a madwomen closer to noon, but i just really don't want to do anything right now. Blah, guess i'll just do it here in a few hours. Neway, laters.