just for a quick moment

I wish i could keep my mood good, instead of it bouncing back and forth. Some days it's not so bad, but right now, it's going back and freaking forth, and it's exausting tryin to keep up. At least things have settled down a bit, because first thing this morning it was really bad. But hey, gotta do what you've gotta do and gotta deal with it the best you can. There is a lot going on right now, getting ready or Ivy's birthday party, and dealing with the bank and the money bs, and trying to get the house cleaned up and kept clean. It's so difficult sometimes to deal with it all, especially when i'm dealing with the girls and the dog and the cats. It's exausting, to say the least.

At least the birthday will be here and over saturday. I will get to visit with some of the friends i haven't seen in a while, and Ivy will have a good time, i'm sure of it. I'm just ready for it to be over because i hate those kinds of social situations. I just hope this one isn't so bad because it's for Ivy. Social situations and i are not friends, at all, and expecially when it's with friends that i don't really know that well. There will be a few people there i know, but there will also be people there i don't know too well, so yeah.

I'm also going to start cleaning house for a friend of mine, and make a little money doing it too. That will be a nice little relief with our money. It will be an extra 40 bucks every two weeks, and i know that's not that much, but if i only work for 2 hours, that's 10 bucks an hour, and that's about all i was thinking about donig. Just a little extra help to get it where it needs to be, you know? I know they can use the help, for sure, and a few little tips that help keep the house up between me coming out there. I bet that when i start keeping up with it, and they realize it's really not that hard, that they will start to keep up with it themselves. And i might see if i can't find a few other people to help out a little to get a little more extra money. Guess hat just comes down to finding someone else who needs it. Never know whatyou will fnid, huh? But whatever.

So for now i need to get off my butt and work on the house a little more. I'm still tired and hurting, but i know too that once i get off my butt and get started it isn't quite so difficult. Maybe i can finish it all up once Ruben wakes up and i can have a little help with the girls. I get something started, and they come right behind me and mess it up, and i'm tired of picking the same room up over and over and over again. Just have to wait and see.

LATERS