something to be passionate about

I feel like i am stuck in a rut. It's the same thing from week to week. It is exausting. There is nothing new, nothing exciting, nothing to look forward to, let alone to be passionate about. I have two wonderful children, and i love watching them grow up. I have a great husband who is very supportive. I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and food in my stomach. I have great friends, even though i don't get to see them that often. I can't say have a bad life, at all. But i can say i have a mundane boring life. I have tried to make plans to get together with people, and they either fall through, or they get cut short. I got to spend a few minutes with Rachel, and then she had to go running off. I got to spend a little time with friends and family for Ivy's b-day party, but i was busy taking care of everything that i didn't really get to enjoy it. That's the same thing that has happened recently with a lot of things. We have gone to do things, but haven't had a chance to really enjoy them because of how things have gone down. We went to the zoo with Chevy and Jaqui and Ivy and Desiree and I. While it wasn't bad to get out, it was hard to do it with just me taking care of the girls. I want to be able to go out with the girls and do things without having to drag the girls around with me. It's not that i don't want to get to spend time with them at all, i just want some adult time too. Need to have Ruben watch them fr me one day and go out with the girls to the movies again, or to the zoo or some other places we want to go without having to spend a million dollars or be there all day. I need something new, and more than that, i need something to be passionate about.