I try so very hard to keep things settled down around here. I have always had a problem dealing with stress, and i am ALWAYS worried about things that aren't even really that bad most of the time. It's frustrating, and i'm tired of it. I've started making a concious effort to not let things affect me that much. Especially things that have already happened, since there isn't really anything that can be done about it now. I want to be able to be happy, and i can't do that if i'm constantly worried about things that i can't control. I've started to get better with it. I'm learning to deal with things as they happen, and not to worry about them before it actually happens, becaue most of the things we worry about never really happen anyway.
Today is laundry day, and it's going to be a long day. I woke up at 5 this morning and realized i had started. Right about on time, just sucks. It's always hard for me, even with the birth control, because i deal with the symptoms for a week or so. I get crampy, tired, and weak. With the mireana i don't bleed much, but i get the rest of the symptoms, which really sucks. Thank goodness for pamprin, lol. Without that, i'm a bitch and a half. It's just hard to do much of anything but sit on the couch and relax when it's this way, cause i have no energy at all. Frustrating, for sure. But it has to be done. I can't use the fact that i don't feel well to not do anything cause then it would never get done. There are very few days where i don't feel well. It's frustrating, cause i need to get to the doctor, but i can't afford it. Hopefully things work out next year and i can afford to go to the doctor more often. Just have to wait and see i guess.
I need to get outside more often. I know the fresh air would do me some good, and the girls too. SO starting this next week, since the weather has started to cool off, i'm going to start going for a walk in the mornings again. Even if it's just to walk ivy to school and back since we don't have much gas money, or walking to like the dollar tree or something like that. I don't know, just have to wait and see. I know when we get paid again i'm going to set a little more money back so i can go to the water canal for walks in the mornings again. It's beautiful down there, and especially in the mornings when there aren't that many people down there. So yeah, it's going to happen. I know that i need the exercise. It's hard to get exercise done at home. Just not enough room, and it's stuffy and all that stuff. Blah, so yeah.
I need to get the laundry together. I need to at last wash Ruben's work clothes and Ivy's school clothes. That way they have the stuffs they need for the week. I don't know if i feel like doing much more. I'll get done what i can, and if i feel up to it i will wash the rest. I'm going to bring it all with me, and just see how far i get. So i need to sign off here, get that together, take some more meds, and hopefully get to feeling better in the next hour so i can get shit done.
Neway, i'm outie!
LYZ
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