Life is definently like a rollercoaster. Sometimes it's up, feeling good, things going your way. Sometimes it's down, where it feels like everything and it's cousin is against you and it will never be right again. I've learned something this last little while. There isn't any way to stop the ride once you are one it, so why not sit back and enjoy the ride a little? Even when things are down, as often happens when you least expect it, try to look for the good things in the situation. I've had some serious things happen to me, as most people who know me know, and i used to let it drag me down and make things worse. I was never happy, ever, even when things were better. I had a great circle of friends, but they were the wrong friends. And i did a million and a half things wrong myself thinking that it would make things better, or at least make me FEEL better. I understand now that i was just hiding. You know, sobering up has been a very, pardon the pun, sobering experience. It has opened my eyes to a lot of things that i hadn't let myself see before. Even if i don't get to see them very often, i have absolutely amazing friends. I have a wonderful family who are there for me when i need them. I have things i never really had much of before. I have a STABLE roof over my head, food in my stomach every day, and clothes on my back. And we even have things i never really had before that aren't so important. We have cable tv and internet, a good cell phone, and i'm able to spend money on random things i want as i want then. I was just able to buy the things that i wanted for my costume, and with the next paycheck i will be able to complete it. I think that's awesome. Before i was only able to put togeter some stuff out of my closet, and hope it actually looked like something cute. This year, i get to be the Mad Hatter (or at least my version of him) which i think is freaking awesome. It is very nice to get to do things i want to do. So yeah. Life is going pretty good right now. And it's good enough that i'm able to deal with some of the stressful things in my life WITHOUT GETTING STRESSED OUT, lol. I just take it one day at a time, and handle it and move past it. That's something i NEVER used to do.
But for now i need to get off the computer and get the house cleaned and dinner done. I'm feeling pretty good physically now, even though i still have a bit of a headache. Hopefully i can kill that before i go to bed, cause i definently could use a good nights sleep tonight,
LATERS
LYZ
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