The anxiety is gonna kill me

I don't know why i get so anxious about doing new things, or even speaking to people i've known for a long time.

Today, i have an interview at Tinker with a family to clean their house, and i'm so freaking nervous it's not even funny! Which is SAD, because i KNOW i can do this. I clean all the time, and i've even cleaned with and for other people. I've been cleaning for a very very long time. I started by helping my mother clean the houses she cleaned, and then we moved onto warehouse and factory stuff, and then i helped my grandmother clean offices and all that jazz. And of course, for doctors and dentists, you have to be PERFECT! They want their offices to "sparkle" as my grandmother used to put it. So i know i can do a good job. So why the hell am I so freaking nervous?

Then i need to call Ivy's old principle again and see if we can get the ball rolling on the in-district transfer. It's up to her. So i have to get ahold of her to find out about it. I tried to call the other day, and was told that they would get her the message, and she would call me back. I understand she's busy, but damn, at least give me a two minute call to let me know what's going on. School starts in less than two weeks, and i don't know what school she's going to be going to, and therefore which school supply list i need to go buy. Why can't the all be the same anyway? Seriously. So hopefully we can hear something on that soon. This is causing all kinds of anxiety and frustration on my end.

Then there is the matter of having to pay the RENT and the ELECTRIC and the fact we don't have enough for all of it. So we are either going to have to call the electric company and find out if we can pay it late, or call the office here to find out if it's ok to pay part of it a little late. Either way, it's gonna suck. i just hope we can figure it out and make it work. Especially since we have so much that needs to get done around it.

THEN we still haven't heard anything from the lawyers office/insurance company. The insurance company is dragging it's feet, like we knew it would, and haven't even agreed to pay the medicle bills, let alone give me pain and suffering money. It's frustrating, to say the least, because i KNOW that everything that went on had to be done, and that i actualy SAVED them money, because i didn't continue treatment like the specalist encouraged me to. Honestly, it's just frustrating. We knew it was going to happen, but at the same time, i just wish they would step up and get their part of this shit taken care of. It would be nice to have a little extra money around for a while. BLAH

So right now, i'm going to go get finished getting ready for the interview. I need to dry my hair more, and find what i'm going to wear. Today it's just me going out to look over the house and let them know how much i'm going to charge for what they want done. It shouldn't take TOO long, but i don't know. Just looking over the house, telling them a price, and if they think it will work out, then they will get me a pass to come back the next week and actually clean. I do need to make sure they know that my car will be changing soon. Cause i don't know if they will need to know that or not. Pretty sure they will. And i'm going to have to get used to actually staying UNDER the speed limit instead of right at it. Just to be safe, and not get pulled over, cause thats the LAST thing i need to happen.

LATERS!