And today is one of those sundays i REALLY REALLY hate. It started normal enough. i woke up with the weather changing, so i was hurting. Nothing new there. We got to lay down and take a nap before i went to do laundry, which WAS new, but in a good way. And i got Ruben to help me get the laundry together before i left, which was also new, but in a good way too. Then, we woke up from the nap, and i was feeling pretty blah. Just achy all around, and just felt like i could have slept for a lot longer. BUT, laundry was calling, and it HAS to be done since Ruben has to have his work clothes, blah. SOO, i packed it and the girls up in the car and headed over to the in-laws for yet another fun filled day of laundry.
Apparently, that fun filled day of laundry also thought i needed a good hearty dose of DRAMA. Before i even had the first load in the dryer shit hit the fan. My sister in law and father in law were poking at each other again. not in a full fledged fight, but certainly on the verge of one. The both agreed, in a maner of speaking, that it was over and went their seperate ways. It would have been WONDERFUL if it had ended there. That's about the norm for sundays over there. There is ALWAYS someone frustrated, pissed off, or otherwise angry at someone else in that house. ALWAYS! It never fails that there is tension in that house. So i was hopeing that was where it would end. But alas, it was not to be. She came back in and started sorting through books. THREW one at me because it was mine, instead of just sitting it beside me or handing it to me. That started me being frustrated, and then she "accidently" hit ivy in the head with a ball. I honestly didn't see what happened, but i know Ivy got hit in the head with a ball, and that she didn't really say she was sorry. She just kinda was like "did you see that? it just fell out of my hand" Ok, no i didn't really see it, but whatever, sure i'll agree if you will shut up and go away. Then i was kinda joking that she couldn't do it again if she wanted to. And she HAD to reply with a snooty coment "well, if i had MEANT to it would have hurt a LOT more" Um, ok, bitch, back off. I didn't say you meant to. And her dad replyed with some stupid remark like "i'm sure it would have" And i had had it! So i said "ok, you guys please stop.. You said you'd drop the drama, now please drop it" And apparently that was enough to piss my sis in law off. Go figure. If you look at her wrong sometimes she gets pissed off. But anyway, she started yelling at me how i have no right to discipline her. I wasn't disciplining her. I was wanting them to stop arguing IN FRONT OF MY CHILDREN!! My girls don't need ot hear that petty bullshit. We put up with that almost every single sunday, and the fact that it was going on for yet another one, in front of the girls, was enough to royally piss me off. They KNOW we come over on Sunday, but yet they still drink a lot on saturday nights so they have hangovers, they still let things get bad between them, instead of going to their seperate rooms. The girls can't go "Hide" when things get bad there. We dont have a room to go lock ourselves in. I just want them to grow up without all the petty drama. Is that REALLY that much to ask? yeah, i didn't think so.
Believe me, if i could afford it, i wouldn't be doing laundry over there in the first place. We'd be doing it here at the apartments. I HATE haveing to do ALL my laundry in one day (or attempt to. It's hard to get that much done in just a few short hours) I HATE haveing to load up the car and lug it over there and carry that much weight around. It's not as bad as it was right after the accident, but my leg is still bad sometimes, and on top of that with the fibro, sometimes it's hard to carry the baskets over there in the first place. And i hate having to sit in a living room with a group of people who get pissed off if you LOOK at the funny, let alone say something they don't like to hear. And don't EVEN try to talk about politics or religion, or race for that matter. That's HORRIBLE! Especially since their views differ COMPLETELY from mine. I would LOVE to be able to do laundry a load a day. Or even two loads at a time. That way i'm not doing it for 8 straight hours. I'd love to be able to do it on more than one day, and not have to carry it all the way to the car and up to the house then back to the car and into the apartment, always by myself. Yeah, it would be a bit extra money wise, but stress wise, it would cut down considerably! But unfortunantly, we can't do that right now. So i am stuck doing laundry with the drama and tension filled home full of selfish bitchy people. UGH! Things will get better. They HAVE to.
And hopefully tomorrow we can get good news from the electric company. Otherwise, we are going to have to start making every phone call we can, and calling in every favor we have coming, to come up with over 1000 dollars. We called the electric company just over two weeks ago to check about paying our bill late. We were told, with average monthly billing you could be late two times per twelve month period, and that at that time they didn't show we were late at all and us paying this months bill late would be fine. Come to find out, apparently we HAD been late, and they canceled our average monthly billing on us, and made the account balance come due. WTF? You told me it wasn't going to be an issue, and now you are charging us all that anyway? Hopefully they can work with us, reset it so we are still on the average monthly billing, or set it up so we can have a payment plan to pay it all off in a way we might actually be able to afford it. Cause i'm not sure we would be able to come up with that amount of money in just under a month. It would be due the first of october if we had to. That's just bullshit. If i had known it was going to cancel our AMB, i wouldn't have paid it late. i would have set up a payment plan with the rent, and paid the electric on time. We were told, specificially, that it would be ok. He even had her double check. So what's up with that? I'm really wishing he had gotten her name, i swear. Because at least that way we could say "we spoke to such and such, and she said this" But we can't. I just hope we can make it work.
And in closing, i just have to say :
Life, can you PLEASE give us a little break here? We are working as hard as we can to make this work. Can you PLEASE PLEASE help us out? Stop letting other people fuck our lives up even more. PLEASE! I can't go back to that again. We have busted ass to make things work thus far, but without a break soon, we aren't going to be able to make it work much longer. PLEASE help it settle down and work out, before we end up living on peoples couches again. I can't do that to my daughters, or to Ruben and I again. We just can't do that!
PLEASE
LYZ
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