prayers and peace

Sending out a prayer request. My friends son, Korben, is back in the hospital. He's fighting with some kind of serious infection in his finger. At the moment, they don't know what it is, and it's killing his thumb. They are afraid they are going to have to take it off. He's only 3 years old now, and to lose his thumb at that age would be extreamely difficult. Please pray they find out what it is and can save at least a part of it.

And another prayer request for another family on the 10th floor at childrens (the cancer wing). One little girl, Danica i believe, has just come out of remission with 50% leukimea cells in her aspiration. So she's going to have to go back into treatment. Please pray for a quick recovery, and a quick remission for her. She is such a beautiful and brave little girl.

And i need a prayer for peace. I've been having a ton of trouble lately keeping my mind straight. Not so much an actual depression, but a major down period. My mind races so much i have trouble getting to sleep, and i can't stop thinking about everything all at once. I'm trying to find a place i can go to find peace when the world starts getting the way it's been. Just something that will help me center and refocus on what is important.

i know i've been stressing out a lot more, although i'm not entirely sure what i'm stressing over. I physically feel blah. I'm having pains in my chest that remind me of a pretty severe panic attack. I have a very stiff neck and shoulder. I feel dizzy and weak, and just blah. I just want to curl up and sleep a lot. But i can't since there is so much to do. I've started to run a low-grade fever, and i'm having some pretty severe pain in my left jaw at the joint. It just sucks. I hope i'm not getting super sick. That would really suck.

I've got a lot going on next week. Wednesday i'm going out to clean at James and Jacquis house. Thursday is ruben's payday, and we will pick up the rest of our christmas gifts for everyone else and find out exactilly how much we have to spend on each other. And then Friday is Ivy's christmas party at her school. I'm wanting to try to send some little gift bags of stuff, or something like that. IDK though, we will just have to wait and see what we have coming in.

Yesterday i got my bedroom completely deep cleaned, and today i got Ivy's bedroom completely deep cleaned. Hopefully here in a few minutes my painkillers will kick in and i can get the rest of the house finished. not deep cleaned, but at least cleaned. And the girls need a bath. It's just crappy since i feel so blah. It's hard to keep up with it all. Getting one room done a day is pretty good though. I guess i can't really complain. I know that when we get a little extra, i'm going to pick up a bunch of hangers and hang up all our clothes. And that way i'm not digging through baskets and stuff looking for clothes for the girls all the time. And then MAYBE Ruben can help me keep up with the laundry as i bring it in once a week, ugh. Right now, time for more painkillers and possibly a beer. And to stop for a few minutes and try to center again. My mind is racing and it's giving me a headache, blah.