Pain, pain go away.....

I am seriously sick and tired of being in so much pain all the time. This Fibro bullshit is getting really damn old. Especially this time of year, i just want to curl up in a little ball and cry and sleep, or i want to lash out at everyone and everything in my path, and all because the pain is so overwhelming i can't see straight. The last few days has been bad. Saturday we got up and went for our early morning walks. Normally, that isn't such a bad thing. We take lesurely walks down interesting paths, and walk until the sun comes up good and the temps start to rise. This saturday though, i had to get stupid and suggest us walking up over this bridge. Ok, doesn't SOUND that bad, but try pushing a stroller w/ kid up this relatively steep incline when you're already hurting. NOT SMART! I discovered this about halfway up the first side. It sucked, to say the least. By the time we made it to the top, my legs were jello, my knee felt like it was on fire and had a razorsharp red hot poker shoved through the back. It was not kool at all. And we kept walking! So by the time we made it back to the car, i was useless! BLAH! The rest of the day we didn't do much but lay around the house, me with my leg propped up because it was all swollen and hurting. And the next morning wasn't much better. Laundry day too, so i had to go up and down and up and down stairs, sometimes carrying a basket of laundry. It wasn't so nice. This morning i woke up feeling like a burning hot steamroller was sitting right on top of me. It hurt to move, to say the least. My leg is swollen. Hell, almost everything is swollen. I've taken ibruprophen (sp?) and it takes the edge off. not much else. AND, to top it all off, i've got to get out and run a few errands when Ivy gets out of school. UGH! Why do i agree to these things! At least my house is managable, and my laundry is done. Maybe after this hot bath i'm about to take, i'll feel like cleaning it back up. LATERS