13/30 Weakness

Describe 5 weaknesses you have.

1 - I hate to see people suffer, in any way.  -  If there is someone going through some hard times, I will do everything possible to help them.  Sometimes that's just a good listening ear and a shoulder to cry on.  Sometimes it's more.  But if i can help, even a little, i will do whatever i can.

2 - Children - I hate seeing kids who don't have the greatest parents.  The ones that send their kids out as soon as they wake up and eat breakfast, and don't let them back inside unless it's to eat or use the bathroom, and then they are back outside again until dinner.  They don't get time with their parents, etc.  And i hate when a kid falls and hurts themselves.  I just want to jump up and make it all better.  You have to be seriously careful about that nowadays though.  Parents (myself included) are a lot more cautious of other people around their kids.

3 - Wanting to be perfect - I want to be super-mom, super-friend, super-wife and everything inbetween.  I want to have the perfect house, the perfect body, the perfect skin, the perfect marriage, the perfect kids.  It is super hard for me to admit that sometimes i need help.  And when someone points out something that i can't do, or didn't get to intime, it makes me feel horrible.  Absolutely horrible.

4 - Bad thoughts - And i'm not talking the nasty bad thoughts.  I'm thinking the kind that have led to problems in the past.  Drinking, cutting, drugs, etc.  When something starts to go wrong, more often than not i catch myself thinking about how great it would be to do one of them again.  Just one more time, just this once, to get away for a while.  At least now i can admit that i'm having said thoughts, and get help with them before they turn into more. 

5 - Drama - From drama TV, to drama in real life, sometimes i find i am drawn to it like a moth to a flame.  I complain about all the drama in my life, but i still catch myself reading it like it's the best story i've ever read.  And i find myself sometimes starting it, just to see what will happen.  I'm getting a heck of a lot better about the whole thing, but it's there, and i am being honest, so there ya go.

I am thankful that the people in my life accept my weaknesses, and still love me for who i am.  And i am blessed to say that i have the greatest friends and family who are there to help me back up when said weaknesses cause me to stumble or fall.