Truth be told, this post doesn't really have a topic. It's just gonna be a bunch of stuff that comes pouring out of my head and onto the page. So if you don't wanna read, by all means, feel free to skip this post.
Today I've been super emotional. Homesick for friends and family. Tired of the car acting up, and wishing we had the money to get it fixed completely. Tired of not having any money because of that stupid garnishment. Tired of the heat already, and it's not even summer yet. Tired of not getting to spend time with any of my friends because of the crazy schedule we've been on for years. Just wishing that things would start to fall back into place a little. Just gotta wait and see what happens. I know at this point we will be ok, but i want to be more than ok again, ya know?
I've had so many thoughts running through my head all day. Thoughts about what i miss from school. Thoughts of what i'm gonna do with Desiree this next school year, since we aren't putting her in pre-k. Thoughts of what i'm gonna do when she does finally start kindergarten and is in school full time. Maybe get a job, or go back to school, or SOMETHING to get me out of the house.
Right now, I am overwhelmed. My house is full of clutter that i just don't have anywhere to put. I can't get organized the right way because i don't have stuff to organize in to. I'm ready to be able to get things taken care of. I just wish i had a little help. I can't really afford to pay someone to help me, and i don't know anybody who could really help the way i need help. So i guess we will just have to take it a little at a time, and use the things we already have until i can afford something else. I'm going to try to get the closet by the bathroom cleaned out first. Lots of stuf we can get rid of in there. And then the girls closet and all the boxes in the top of their closet. If i can get those done, then i'd have space to start storing stuff we just don't have an actual place for. I just gotta find the motivation to get it done. At least i've got all summer. I should be able to get the house semi-organized in that amount of time.
I'm watching the House Series Finale, which is sad. :( I'm not happy to see it go at all. In fact, there are a few shows i'm not happy to see go. Eureka and House for sure. But alas, they can't last forever. Just means i'm gonna have to go out and get the box sets. Got a few of those i want to get. Charmed, Numbers, Stargate Atlantis, Eureka, House, and i'm sure there are more that i just can't remember. Series with an actual ending, and not just something they gave up on and never brought to a conclusion.
I think tomorrow we are just going to take the day off. Not gonna go to the store, or anywhere else for that matter. Then maybe Wed we can get out and go for a walk, or to the zoo, until it starts to warm up. Maybe do a picnic and take some pictures, as a family. It's been a while since we've done something like that. Bring my tri-pod and actually get some group shots. We need to do that. I need a good family photo up on my wall.
For now though, i need to get off my butt and finish dinner. I just have no motivation at all right now. BLAH! I hope i can get a good nights sleep tonight. I'm exhausted.
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