Unfortunate/ Furtunate

This is inspiration taken from another blog on here.  If you haven't read through it yet, check out http://alwaysamrsforeverakidd.blogspot.com/.  Pretty good posts over there. :) 

But anyway, it goes like this.  You make a list of the things that you consider unfortunate, and fortunate.  So here goes.  It might be a little jumbled, but it's only the first time i've done it, so just bear with me, k?



Unfortunate

That I let myself get excited about the garnishment falling off Ruben's paycheck, only to find out that it didn't and we now have to cover at least another few months and i have no idea how i'm gonna do it

I let myself get so stressed out that it's making the MS and my migraines and my heart flutter even worse

I find myself thinking about all the things i used to run and hide in because of the stress.  I never have been very good at handling it, and this is no exception

Living up here i spend a lot of time by myself.

The things i used to love to do are becoming routine, and I hate it

No matter how hard I try, i never feel like i'm good enough.  I may be good enough to everyone else in my life, but to me, i always feel like i could be better and i'm failing at it. 

Fortunate

I have the greatest friends and family.  And the most amazing husband.  And they are all doing everything they can to help us with this annoying garnishment thing.  I couldn't ask for more.

I acknowledge that I get too stressed out over things, and i'm starting to realize it's not worth it.  I take a deep breath, and I ask myself these questions.  Can you change it?  Can you fix it?  Can you control it?  And if the answer to those questions is NO, i let the situation go and stop stressing and focus on what i CAN change, fix, or control

I am strong enough to say no to the temptations now.  I look at my life, and while things may be going crazy around me, there are so many people who have it worse than i do.

Spending a lot of time by myself has allowed me the chance to really discover who I am, and not who i have been to please other people.

I have the chance to explore and find new things that I love.  And I love pinterest for it, lol.  Seriously, that site is my new addiction, and I know i'll find something else that I love

The more I feel like I may not be good enough, the more i realize that I am me.  I am all I can be, and I give everything I have.  And truth be told, I'm falling in love with that.  I may not be perfect, but at least i'm not FAKE.  This is ME, and if you don't like it, there's the door, or the delete button.  It won't break my heart.

Not sure that's what it was supposed to be, but i think it accomplished what it needed to accomplish.  It helped me take the bad things in my life and turn them around.  To see the good in everything around me.

And truthfully, I am blessed in more ways than even I know. And i'm seeing it more and more each day.

LOVE YOU!