What do you think people misundertand most about you?
This is one of the most difficult posts to date. Looking at life, and myself, through my own eyes it's hard to know what people misunderstand about me. There are things that FEEL misunderstood, but it could just be a skewed point of view from one vantage point. But this is what I feel and think that peopl emisunderstand the most about me:
I think people misunderstand the way I handle things. I think, from their perspective, I seem spoiled and selfish and self-centered when things seem to start going downhill. I whine and cry and throw little fits, and complain about how bad things are getting, even as the rest of the world is dealing with far worse situations. When I complain about the checks being garnished and how hard it is to live with 400 less a month, I keep hearing "well, at least you have income. There are thousands of people out there looking for jobs" Or "At least you have a roof over your head. You could be homeless". When I cry because things take me by surprise and i'm not prepared for them, they look at me like i'm making a mountain out of a grain of sand. And I can understand why they'd think that. Most of the people in my life are fighting bigger battles than my family and I. Like weight loss, trying to have a baby, trying to keep a roof over their heads and clothes on their backs, or trying to figure out where their next meal is coming from. My heart goes out to them more than I can ever show. And I know that we have had our fair share of way worse too. And despite all the bad things that happen, we still live a blessed life.
I'm starting to see that now. But there are still times when the little things keep piling up and it gets to a point where that last grain of sand really does form a mountain that I have to climb, or at least move out of the way. I'm stronger than I let on, and the friends that have known me the longest know this. But those newer friends, who are fighting their own battles every day, keep telling me to grow up and get over it. They don't understand that my crying and whining and screaming about a situation is just my way of dealing with said situation. And i have no idea how to make them see that. That is what people misunderstand most about me.
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