Trying to believe that things will get better. Gotta have faith. But sometimes it feels like the light at the end of the tunnel is just an oncomming train just waiting to run me over. It's just one thing after another right now.
With the continuing garnishment, it's a struggle to find where the rent is coming from. And if not for the most amazing friends and family in the world, we wouldn't be making it right now. And there are a billion things we need to take care of, and already having to borrow money for the rent, we can't afford to pay for any of it.
I need to go to the doctor.
We need to get some parts for the Transmission on the Grand Am. Gonna try some fluid cleaner stuff first, which is 13.00 (but when you're broke that's too much to afford) And then if THAT doesn't work, we are gonna replace the transmission filter and fluid - which is damn near 90. I just hope we can keep it pushing through until we can afford to get it replaced. And then if that doesn't work, the tranny is shot, and we will focus on the Tibby. My nephew - who is AWESOMELY mechanically inclined, lol - took a look at it and got the quotes taken care of so I can show Ruben. He also said we can get ahold of him sometime soon to come look at the Tibby and let us know if it's the fuel pump or something else. Hopefully we can figure it out, and it won't be something stupid hard to replace. It's just a matter of keeping it running until we can afford to get it fixed. So all the prayers and good thoughts, etc, are grealy appreciated.
I need to get Ivy some new shoes for school (which I might just bite the bullet and get done with this next paycheck, if possible). But thanks to my amazingly awesome mom, i don't have to worry about her supplies or backpack - or even clothes. THANKS MOM!
I need to get some school stuffs for Desi. Don't really have to get anything that costs money. Just might see about getting Ruben to print some stuff off at his job for us to get started with.
We need to get some stuff done around the house. Mainly organizational stuff, which I MIGHT be able to figure out with old boxes and some cloth or paint. I know I've got lots and lots of boxes and totes and baskets, etc. But it's a matter of getting things weeded out so it can all FIT in what I've got. I'm honestly sick and tired of all the crap in my house. I'm about to just go on a purging spree and get rid of a TON of things. HOPEFULLY I can get things done pretty soon. We have an amazing apartment, but just too much stuff to fit in it comfortably.
I need to get Desi to the doc for immunizations.
I need to get Ivy to the dentist.
I need to get over my anxiety to get them to those appoitnments.
I need to get to deep cleaning my house. Cleaning carpets, out from under sinks, behind toilets, cabinents, matresses and blankets. Closets. Just need to pick one and get started. Might do me some good to deep clean. Just tired of all this crazy crap.
For now, i'm gonna stop bitching and start typing other things, lol. I know people don't read this to read about all the crazy negative crap going on in my head.
I played a game of warmachine last night. It was a three way game - which is always kind of annoying, but still can be fun, lol - Between Daniel, Ruben, and I. Daniel played Hordes. Ruben played Epic Cane Warmachine. And I played Thyra warmachine. It was a 25 point list, so it wasn't a HUGE list. I got lucky and ended up not being the first to lose. It was Ruben, and only because Daniel focused on him, lol. Then it came down Caster to caster between Ruben and I. I didn't do enough damage to Kill him, and the next turn he killed me. I'm ok with that. I rarely win - mostly because I haven't had the chance to play that many games against certain armies so i don't know how to play against them. But the more we play, the more I understand my army, the better I seem to do.
Like I played a game of Warmachine against Ruben and his McBain list - And I didn't get the OFFICIAL Win, but my list did manage to kill him. (He has tough, which means that even though I did kill him once, he rolled the right roll and stood back up with one point left - And he could have used that to obliterate my caster, lol) He gave it to me. And while it kinda sucks to say that, it was nice to know he went down like that. Next time I'll have to remember the spell I have that causes a certain type of damage that takes Tough away! Lol. There are a lot of things I've got to remember. I just need to keep playing. It's nice that we've actually been making it a point to play around a game a week, and then at OKC WARS once a month (although there won't be a War this month due to some random thing at the hotel across the street that we can't afford to go to, lol)
Been watching Ice Road Truckers on Netflix. It's interesting, to say the least, lol. It got Ruben thinking about being a Trucker. Short haul, if he can -Like around town - at least to start. It would pay better, and be something that he could handle ok. He likes to drive, and he likes to work alone. That would kill two birds with one stone, lol. Doubt it will happen anytime this year, but he's considering it for next year. He's thinking about it for a few different reasons. The first is because he's about to top out at the current job - which means he'd have to take a promotion to make more money, or find a new job. And he doesn't want management. And second because it would be a good foot in the door for something we've discussed for once the girls are old enough to move out. We are talking about becoming Team Drivers. If he started early enough, he could make enough to buy his own truck and become an owner operator. And then when the kids are out of the house I could get my truck drivers license, and we could be owner operator team drivers. It could be pretty awesome. The amount of money we could make is anywhere between 40,00 and 60,000 a year. Depending etc. If we could live like we are for a few more years, and save up, we could buy a moble home and drop it on a small plot of land and have our own home too. Have it all the way paid off, and then we wouldn't have to worry about it. If we had plans to be out on the road for a while, we could just have everything shut off for a while until we knew we were coming back. Give us a chance to see the country, make some money, and be together while we were doing it. It has the potential of being pretty damn sweet, if it all works out, lol. Not gonna push the subject though, cause it seems that the more excited about things I get and the more I push, the less he wants to do it. SOO, just gonna be sure to keep the idea in his head, and see what happens.
This next week we aren't gonna be doing a whole lot. It's gonna still be hot, the car is still acting up, etc. So we are just gonna hang out around the house. Gonna have to get Ivy's new year enrollment taken care of the 14th (i believe) for her new school year. I'll double check the calander, but i'm pretty sure that's when it is. And then she will have her first day of school on the 17th. That day too we are going to be helping that family on base move. Hopefully it will all work out and we can make more than enough money for the month's rent. It should all work out. Gotta figure out some super cheap awesome things to do for the girls birthdays. Which are coming up FAST! Kinda sucks that we won't have anything at all to spend on them this year. :( But I'm sure with the family, and with the free stuffs we know about around town, we can make it an awesome day anyway. Might just try to make something for them. I've got all kinds of things around the house. It would just be a matter of turning it into something awesome, lol. I guess we will see.
For now, I need to lay down. Feeling kinda funny. Hearts been spazzing the last few days (probably cause of the heat) and it's exhausting.
LATERS!
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