Seriously???

I am so beyond sick and tired of all the BS that's been going on lately.

In the grand scheme of things, It's all the same BS that's been going on for a while now.  But it usually happens a little at a time.  I guess it's the time of year, but not this time.

Recently I've had more and more people accuse me of being lazy.  And they've accused me of abusing the system.  And all I wanna do is scream every time I hear that crap.  You don't know me.  You don't know what's going on in my life or the reasons I do things.  You have NO RIGHT to talk to me like I'm less of a person than you are because I need a little help.  Walk a mile in my shoes and then tell me the same things.  I mean, I'm sorry, but all you're asking for is a punch to the face.  If you'd ask me, I'd tell you my reasons.  Although, as arrogant as you seem to be, I'm sure you'd say they were "excuses" instead of realizing they are FACT!  I'm thankful for those in my life who DO understand.  And all you idiots who don't, just be thankful I'm so afraid of going to jail right now, heh.

I'm sick and tired of feeling so sick and tired, heh.  I'm sure you understand.  I wake up in the mornings sometimes and I can barely sit up in bed on my own.  I worked the last two days cleaning that house on base.  That, combined with the weather changing, had me in so much pain that it took me 20 minutes just to get up and move like a semi-normal human.  It seriously sucks, cause some days I'll do really great.  I mean, I"m in a pretty good mood, but just physically I'm in so much pain that moving at all SUCKS.  I was supposed to go out and pick something up at one of the local stores, but I just really don't feel like it.  HOPEFULLY we can go out and get it tomorrow.

I am tired of the girls fighting all the time over every little thing.  They have pretty good days, but most of the time they are arguing over the video game, or TV show, or toy, or game, etc.  It's frustrating because they don't listen to me for crap.  But I guess that's the joy of having two kids.  And truthfully I do consider myself blessed because there are so many people out there who can't have kids. 

I have friends that are all going through some pretty dificult things - and it sucks because I want to be able to help them as much as we were helped this last year.  But alas, we are still struggling ourselves so there's not much more I can do besides look up information online, and pray.  Lots and lots of praying.

LIST OF PRAYER REQUESTS

If you pray, take a moment to send a prayer for the following.  No names, just circumstances (so I'm sure one of you at least will know who I'm talking about).  If you want me to take it down, just ask.  LOVE YOu

One of my friends husbands just lost his job.  And that one friend is working for less an hour than Ruben makes, and paying more in bills than we have.  Her husband is having a difficult time with the circumstance, which is understandable.  He needs a little help realizing it's ok to ask for help and a hand up where possible.  They both need help to stay strong.  And they both need to remember how much those in their lives love them, and will do whatever possible to help them.  So please send a prayer for strength through this difficult time they are facing.

Another of my friends is having super crazy anxiety when it comes to her kids.  Her first son had a very rare form of cancer (luckly he's been in remission for a while now, but it's still crazy).  So any time either of her boys runs a fever, has a cough, or just feels blah she has a crazy freaking anxiety moment over it.  She needs a little help to realize that it's ok to freak out.  But that kids will be kids, and they get sniffles and sneezes and that's completely normal. So please send a prayer for help with her anxiety.

Please send a prayer to another friend and his wife.  They are currently in the process of trying to move into another house that has central heat and air and is in much better shape.  But he needs to refinance so he can actually afford it.  Please pray that they can get that new house which will be better not only for them, but for his daughter when she gets to come visit too. 

Please pray for another mom I know.  She is living in a crappy house, dealing with a crappy greedy company, and having to take them to court for failure to do things they've said they would do.  And it's putting her family at risk.  She is big big preggers and has another son already.  They house has faulty heat, and only heats one or two bedrooms.  And there are a lot of things wrong with the house that they say they are going to fix, and then flake out on.  And they are fucking her around on her rent.  SOO, lets pray that they either get their act together, or give her all the money she's paid them so she can move to another home that's not such crap.

And send up an unspoken prayer request for some other things.

HOPEFULLY tomorrow we can get the paycheck taken care of early.  Then drop the books in the book return at the library, get out and pick up the model he has coming in, and get back home before too late.  Then friday we need to focus on the house.  Need to get laundry put up (or at least a little of it).  And clean house a little too.  It's not bad, but cluttered and we need to get it taken care of. 

For now though, I'm gonna curl up with my comfy spot and try to catch a nap.  Then doing chicken marinara for dinner.  Then HOPEFULLY I can get a good long bath before bed, followed by a nice good nights sleep.  But I guess we will see, haha.

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