Some realizations

I just realized that David Tennant had a bit role in Harry potter and the Goblet of Fire. 

I realized that my "lonliness" is mainly self inposed because i'm too afraid of imaginary rejection.

I realized that the majority of my anxiety is pretty darn stupid when you look at it in a rational way.

I realized that I LOVE my girls, but I seriously can't wait until Spring Break when Ruben and I will get a week away from them.

I realized that I am afraid of a lot of the things we are planning to do, even though none of them are dangerous and most cold be REALLY fun.

I realized that, as much as I know I shouldn't, I REALLY want a drink right now.  And it's frustrating.

I realized how much I miss the things from my past, like working at the movie theatre, and being a wild and crazy teenager - even though most of that isn't as awesome as my memory of it.

I realized how much life has a way of screwing with us just when we think things are going right, and how it is kind of making us pay for things it's given us.  Which is super annoying when it's going on.

I realized just how much I hate the Kaos boss battle from Skylanders, and how all I wanna do is beat it so I can play Giants.

I realized just how I am both excited AND anxious about our trip this weekend.  Between the rental car, the girls being gone, and it not being long enough, It's gonna be crazy weird.  Although it's gonna be awesome to get to see everyone again, even if it is just for a short time.

and I realized how blessed I am.

I have the greatest friends and family in the world.  They are always there for me, and help pull me through when I don't think I can do it on my own. 

I have a roof over my head, food in my stomach, and clothes on my back.  And while sometimes we are tight, we always make it through.

I may not have the best of health, but I have friends and family who are completely understanding when I can't do something.  And I couldn't ask for more.

At the end of the day, I realize just how far we've come from when we first married.  Living on others couches, wondering where our next meal would come from, not having a car or a job.  Yet here we are.  Stronger for it all. 

And yes, life has a way of throwing things at us.  And yes, sometimes the things we have to go through SUCK.  But thanks to amazing friends and family, and amazing bosses (Brita and Nick Hill, James Kerr, and Lindsay Johnson - you guys rock!) we always make it to the other side.  Not always unharmed.  But we make it through.  And that is amazing.

I just needed to share what I've been thinking.

Bout time to make dinner.  Thinking pizza rolls and chicken nuggets and french fries for dinner.  Then gonna watch Rise of the Guardians with the girls while we eat dinner. :)  Then bathtime and an early bedtime for the girls.  HOPEFULLY Ivy feels better tomorrow. 

Gonna pack up tomorrow.  So when we get the rental car on Friday we can just pack it up and leave when Ivy gets out of school.  HOPEFULLY we can get out of here pretty soon after she gets out, so we can get there by 7:30 - 8:00 and drop the girls off at my moms.  Then hit the hotel and relax a bit.  Maybe see friends that night, but IDK.  Just depends on what time we actually get there.  Then Saturday morning we are gonna get together with friends and hit the park for a bit.  Then the anniversary party at 1:00.  Then we are gonna try to hang out with more friends afterwards, and then leave town by about 7:00 - 8:00 so we can be back before midnight.  Then we MIGHT have friends over to play games.  Sunday we are thinking about going to Tulsa for a bit with the rental car.  Maybe do laser tag, go shopping, or just drive.  Then starts the crazy awesome week, heh. 

LATERS!