Feeling sentimental today plus some music, lol.

Missing the days of the past when things seemed so much simpler.

Back when the ice cream truck still sent me running for the front door

and I could blare my music in the car and not care who heard

back when the riverfront was my favorite hangout

and we could sit and watch the water run for hours

Back when we could jump up and go

whenever we had a free moment

and not have to worry about kids, or gas money

Back when things were a day by day kind of time

and there were no worries about when to pay the bills

or if we had enough money for that impromptu trip

Back when my body didn't hate me

and I could go for DAYS on just a few hours sleep.

Missing the days where I didn't worry so much

about things I couldn't change

And I was falling in love with life

despite all the craziness that was going on.

Missing the moments that took my breath away

and the moments that made me cry.

Missing the moments of intense emotion

and the hands that were there to wipe the tears

and hug me when things seemed to be falling apart

And while life is pretty darn good

(And I say that with a grain of salt

because, well, it's life, and it changes all the time)

and I have amazing friends and family

and I can't say that anything is really BAD right now

I still miss those moments.

Missing the chances I had to spend with friends

Missing the time when life wasn't so lonely

when i always had somewhere to go

and something to do with someone

I love living in Oklahoma City.

I love the Lakefront

and the zoo

and the water canal

and the apt we are in

and the school the girls go to.

I don't always love the weather

but that's gonna be EVERYWHERE, lol.

But despite that love for this city

I often find myself wanting to move back "home"

Back where I spent the majority of my life

(at least thus far, lol)

Back where my oldest friends are

Back where there are still sentimental places

that tug at my heartstrings when I think of them

And most of all, the people.

The people I miss so desperatly most days

Sifu, and Tai tai, and Cassie, and Ashley

Mom, and Dad, and Whitney and her family

Both Grandmas, aunts, and uncles

People I spent SOO LONG tired of spending time with

Now, i just want to see them on a regular basis.
And not just once a year.

I can't wait until we have a good running car again

And I'm able to show the girls the good times we can have here.

and make trips down to Arkansas on a regular basis

and show them the places and people I love down there too

I just hope it's in time

Because so many of those people and places are getting old

and they won't be there forever

Things are changing every day

And I'm so sentimental for the old days

Guess that's what being homesick will do to ya, huh?

Guess it will just make the next trip home that much better.

And for those people who think I'm depressed

Or that i'm not happy with my life

THINK AGAIN!

I love my life up here.

I honestly wouldn't change much at all about it.

Just, if I could, I'd add some of the past to it too, lol.

I'm sure you've all had days like that?

Right?

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Anyway, moving on

Thankful that we got all of our errands run EARLY today

cause I'm feeling like CRAP physically today.

Legs, back, arms, head

All just feel like one big ball of OWWIE!

Thankful for painkillers, and a comfy couch, haha.

And Netflix and HBO Go too, lol.

Oh, and Youtube too.

Here's a few songs I've found:

HOPEFULLY I'll feel better tomorrow.
Got a couple errands I need to get taken care of

Gotta pay the rent (YAY!  grrr )

And gotta FINALLY ship off the necklace

that I gave away on Wish Upon A Star

I hope she likes it!
Hey, it's free for her, so she should, lol.

(that ones for you Cassie!  Dubstep violin for the win!)

Gonna do EASY for dinner

Boiled ravioli and marinara sauce with garlic/ cheese breadsticks

Super easy, and super yummy!

Trying to think of something fun to do with the girls tomorrow

that won't be TOO taxing on my physically

but will be super fun for them

and I THINK I've got it.

Gonna start a summer memory book.
Bought some cute foam sheets

and weve got some paint

So I'm gonna have them put their handprint on the front

and then we will put pics of different things

or "treasures" they find

Or trips we've been able to take with friends

and then write the date we went

where it was found

etc etc etc.

Think that'd be pretty awesome.
And then they'd have it to look back on and remember

HOPEFULLY they like the Ideas as much as I do.

Neway, been at the comp too long.
Backs starting to scream at me

So I'm outta here

LOVE YOU GUYS!

LYZ

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PS:

I came across this song earlier

while just randomly looking for original songs.
And It really hit home for how I was

back in high school

and for the first few years after graduation

I got down to 90 pounds

have scars up and down my arms and legs

and I never felt worth a damn

But now I've realized that life is so much better

than I ever dreamed it'd be back when I was in so deep.

Just check it out, k?