Ok life, can I get off this rollercoaster?
The last few days have been CRAZY emotionally. From being super homesick for my friends and family in Arkansas and things that are going on around here, to having so many people fighting, throwing a fit, or otherwise just being uber grumps over things that may be frustrating but aren't horrible things - I just want a break.
When Congress started threatening closing down because they can't get their heads out of their asses, TONS of rumors started to fly about WHY they were being such dumbasses. But when people started to blame the president instead of looking into the REAL reasons, I lost it. It's sad how few people know how to use a search engine on the internet with it's overabundance of information to find out what's really going on and instead just believe whatever they wanna believe. Seriously frustrating for those of us who DO know how, ya know? So that was a frustrating thing - and now that it HAS shut down (once again, because Congress is a bunch of idiots who don't realize that the shut down has actually COST the country BILLIONS OF DOLLARS instead of just making a budget themselves) there are SO MANY who are griping about it. The funny thing to me is that 99% of the people griping about it actually have NOTHING happen to them when it happens. At least the people that I see griping about it don't really. I'm sorry, it doesn't make sense to me to complain about something that either doesn't effect you or that you can't really change anyway. What's the point of all that negativity? But whatever, I can't change them or convince them that the complaining is a waste of perfectly good breath, so I'm gonna leave it alone.
Then last night I heard about my sister in law's water rupturing (not actually breaking THANK GOODNESS!) at only 23 weeks. I freaked out, because the first thing I thought was that she was going to lose him! :( That stressed me out, and freaked me out, and kept me awake pretty late last night. Thank goodness that the water didn't actually break, she still has plenty of fluid, he's still active, and thus far she doesn't have an infection. They've started her on steroids so he has a fighting chance if he DOES come early, and she has resigned herself to the fact that she will probably be on bed rest until he DOES come. I just hope he can hold out a bit longer so he has a better fighting chance, ya know? But at this point, it's in the God and Goddesses hands. So just praying, and giving it to them, and hopefully they will see fit to protect the little man a little longer. But that was crazy emotional too.
Then today we didn't get our food stamps (not really SURPRISED, but still annoyed). SOO, I called to find out what was going on - and they said I hadn't turned in all my information! Um, yes I did. I had my phone interview on the 19th, and turned the info in on the 20th. Well, what had happened apparently was that the person who did the case only looked at ONE paycheck stub instead of both of them that were copied on the same page! IDIOTS - I tell ya what. SOO, she sent an email to the supervisor and they should be taking care of it. BUT, now it's a matter of playing the waiting game. And I'm sorry, but that's frustrating as hell too, because I have two dinners, no breakfast, and no lunch in there right now - and no money to get anything. We spent the last of our money at the end of the month last month to get us through until the first, so we are SPENT - BROKE broke. So Hopefully they can get it taken care of in the next little bit and not keep us waiting too long. If they do, we will be ok - but it'll mean borrowing from my mother in law to get us through until it gets in. And while I love her for doing it, I HATE that we have to do that. BLAH! If I'd thought about it, i would have gotten up and gone to the food bank this morning to get us through. But I didn't, so here we sit. BLAH!
Tonight (in just under an hour) is an event for Ivy and her Advanced Learning stuff. Gonna be two hours long - and I'll have Desiree with me. Gonna be a LONG two hours, haha. But it's something that she asked so nicely to go to, and we haven't taken her to any of the other ones, so I told her she could go to this one. But now I'm fighting the anxiety of doing something new with new people at a new place. NOT A GOOD THING! I took some of my anxiety meds, and hopefully they will help, but I still hate this crap. At least I got a nap, so I won't be tired and pissy too, ya know? Just hope that it's something that she really enjoys, and that I can keep Desiree occupied - even if it means taking her somewhere else and letting her play on the tablet while I sit bored out of my mind, haha. Guess we will see what happens though. :)
Tomorrow I'm going to go clean for a friend of mine in the morning. Shouldn't take TOO long, and it's an extra $50 so I can actually pay my rent on time. And it's helping a friend, so that'll be a good thing too. Just wishing we didn't NEED it right now, cause I'd really LOVE to go out and DO something with it instead, haha. But oh well - life had other plans.
Thursday is Payday - and Hopefully Ruben will get some overtime. Cause I have a feeling we are going to need it, haha. If for nothing else than to get me out of the house Friday to go do SOMETHING, ya know? Been cooped up for a bit now, and I'm really needing to get out and do stuff. Even if it's an extra 10 so we can take a drive somewhere new, or go for a good walk, or something like that. But again, guess we will see what happens. Just know we HAVE to pay the rent, cause we can't afford for it to be late, ya know? BLAH!
Then there's FRIDAY! YAY FRIDAY, haha. Probably won't do a LOT this weekend, since we were kinda busy this past weekend with OKC wars and all that. But we will probably play some Lego Batman, might actually get out and do some stuff too, and then YAY for getting to fall asleep beside each other. I seriously hate that we only get one night a week sometimes. But we make the most of the time we have, and it pays the bills and keeps a roof over our head, So I truly can't complain. There are people out there that can't do that. :)
Anyway, I'm gonna go find something for the girls to eat for an after school snack and get ready to take Ivy to that thing. At least I got easy pizza for dinner tonight, lol. After sitting for two hours, I'm not sure I'd be up to actually cooking, ya know?
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