Day two of dose three

and it seems that the 3/4 dose has been worse than the others.
The pain in my leg SUCKS!  And I don't have anything that really helps, and of course - thanks to the new stricter laws - nobody will prescribe anything good.  Seriously sucks.
Gonna pick up my new meds tomorrow, and hopefully they will do something for me.  And it'll be nice to have something for my anxiety, cause the stupidest things will set it off, and it's next to impossible to make it go away with any kind of consistency.  BLAH!

And I gotta keep up with my nsaid painkillers or I risk my eyes getting bad again.  And I mean, tripping out every 30 seconds bad.  It's frustrating to try to do something and have to stop every few seconds to let my eyes focus again.  Just wish it'd do it at the doctors office so she could see what was happening.  But whatever, it sucks but it is what it is.

Been trying to focus on things that make me happy.  Positive things.  But it's getting harder and harder the longer this flare goes on. I know I'm going to be dealing with it the rest of my life, and it will only get worse from here, so I'm doing my best.  But it's hard.  Very very hard.

And I swear, there are two different kinds of people that PISS ME OFF with this whole thing.  The kind that tell me to suck it up and the kind that pity me.  I don't want either.  I just want to be treated like a normal person.  Is that really too much to ask?  I guess for some people it really is.  BLAH!

Tomorrow is payday, and we are going to get my medication filled so I can try all of it.  And we will get the rest of the girls easter basket stuff.  Friday is a day to relax and clean house.  Saturday we are going to dye eggs with the girls.  And Sunday is Easter - which means I've gotta deal with the in-laws.  But good news is, I'll get to see Brittany and the Baby.  It'll be only the second time I've seen Jason, and the first time out of the NICU where I can actually hold him and good and interact with him. :)  That'll be good at least.  I just hope they are willing to actually bring me home when I've had too much.  Cause I have a feelings it will happen way too fast for my liking.

Then NEXT weekend is OKC wars. :)  Makes me happy to get to hang out with people again.  Might not be able to DO a whole lot, but I need to socialization, ya know?

Anyway, gonna get off here.

LATERS