Just gonna ramble for a minute

Keep up, if you can, heh.  I know nobody is really reading this anyway, so yeah.  Mostly just writing because I need to get it out of my brain, and this is the easiest way to do it sometimes.

Been listening to a LOT of music lately.  And it's funny, cause it's full of completely different artists, but it's the stuff that I really like.  Like Eminem, Miranda Lambert, and Kesha (among others).  Just listening to music that I like helps to drown out the rest of the world sometimes.  I know people do that too, so I don't feel completely crazy when I do that.  Just keeping things sane for a few minutes always seems to help.

I've been taking the new meds for over a week now, and I can tell they've been helping.  Thankful for the doctor giving me something for my anxiety, and smaller doses of the gabapentin to take during the day so I don't sleep life away, cause if I was taking the other I'm sure I would.

But I am so tired of fighting this flare.  Beyond ready to be back to "normal" or as close to it as I possibly can.  I know I'll never be back to completely normal, but back to some kind of normal would be nice.  To be able to drive myself places I need to drive again. To be able to go for long walks without having to stop halfway through. To be able to read things without having to close one eye, or see double.  There are a lot of little everyday things I took for granted for so long that I really miss.  Ya know?  Just tired.  Tired of fighting.  Tired of feeling this way.  Just tired.

We need to get rid of a lot of things.  Next month will be pest control again, and I'm sure they will want to spray the whole house again, so we need to get it done.  And I need to feel up to doing it.  I just hope the girls and Ruben will be able to help so we can get it good and done. And we still have WAY too much stuff. Especially the girls.  We need to take time clearing out their toys, and then we need to get their bed put back together right.  Just gotta do it soon.  Guess I'll have to see.

Just thought I'd share some of the music I've been listening to with you.  Hope you guys enjoy it as much as I do. :)



 

You only need the light when it's burning low
You only miss the sun when it starts to snow
You only know you love her when you let her go, oh

 

 

You had it all for a pretty little while
And some how you made me smile when I was sad
You took a chance on a bruised and beaten heart
Then you realized you wanted what you had
I guess I should've been more like that

 

 

It's going down, I'm yelling timber
You better move, you better dance
Let's make a night you won't remember
I'll be the one you won't forget

 

 

 So let's shake hands and reach across those parting lines
You got your friends just like I got mine
We might think a little differently
But we got a lot in common you will see
We're just like you, only prettier

Okie dokie.
I'm getting outta here
I'll talk to you folks later
LATER TATER!