One of my favorite songs right now
"Dear Sobriety"
My hands are shaking
But I can still pour the mistake that I'm making
And I'll pour one more
It runs in my family, it runs in my blood
And just like my daddy, I can't get enough
Every last drop I say is the last
Then I drive to the store and I fill up my glass
Dear Sobriety
Please come back to me
I left you high and dry
I'm doomed for good this time
I swore I wouldn't be
I'm making a fool of me
I need you desperately
Dear Sobriety
Two years I gave in and I did not sway
And I swore to my family I'd keep it that way
Saved by the good Lord and hurt in their eyes
But life would back splatter and I compromise
If heartache won't kill you, you find something that will
And it turns out this battle is only uphill
Dear Sobriety
Please come back to me
I left you high and dry
I'm doomed for good this time
I swore I wouldn't be
Oh but I'm making a fool of me
I need you desperately
Dear Sobriety
Dear Sobriety
Please come back to me
I left you high and dry
I'm doomed for good this time
I swore I wouldn't be
Oh but I'm making a fool of me
I need you desperately
Dear Sobriety
But I can still pour the mistake that I'm making
And I'll pour one more
It runs in my family, it runs in my blood
And just like my daddy, I can't get enough
Every last drop I say is the last
Then I drive to the store and I fill up my glass
Dear Sobriety
Please come back to me
I left you high and dry
I'm doomed for good this time
I swore I wouldn't be
I'm making a fool of me
I need you desperately
Dear Sobriety
Two years I gave in and I did not sway
And I swore to my family I'd keep it that way
Saved by the good Lord and hurt in their eyes
But life would back splatter and I compromise
If heartache won't kill you, you find something that will
And it turns out this battle is only uphill
Dear Sobriety
Please come back to me
I left you high and dry
I'm doomed for good this time
I swore I wouldn't be
Oh but I'm making a fool of me
I need you desperately
Dear Sobriety
Dear Sobriety
Please come back to me
I left you high and dry
I'm doomed for good this time
I swore I wouldn't be
Oh but I'm making a fool of me
I need you desperately
Dear Sobriety
:)>-<(:
This song really hits home from how I was a few years ago. It's amazing how far I've come thanks to the amazing support of my family and friends. It used to be a bottle a night, and now I can't drive more than a couple shots without feeling it hit my head (and that's a good thing).
Life has been a lot of ups and downs, especially lately. Between the MS, and the meds that go with it, to the crap that I'm putting up with in every day life (nothing I can't handle, and nothing huge, but lots of little things piling up) I just want to curl up and sleep till it's over, ya know? Have any of you ever felt that way? I know there are a lot of people out there that have felt the same way and dealt with the same things. Just wish it were easier, huh? But things could always be worse, and I'm thankful for everyone and everything in my life. :)
Been listening to a LOT of upbeat music lately, and it's been helping.
Louder - by Lea Michele
Timber - Kesha and Pitbull
Waiting for Superman - Daughtry
Follow your arrow - Kacey Musgraves
Hush Hush - Pistol Annies
Survival - Eminem
Mama's broken heart - Miranda Lambert
and a lot of songs like that.
They really seem to help put me in a better frame of mind when I've had a bad day.
Been dealing with a lot of anger. I think it's just me getting tired of my MS and all the things it's taken from me. I'm doing my best to remember the good things - cause there really are a lot of good things in my life - but some days it's really hard. And some days the stupidest things will set me off. If anybody has any ideas how to help with that PLEASE let me know. :) It'd be greatly appreciated. Cause it's all new for now, and I have no idea how to help it.
Tonight I'm gonna do an easy dinner. Thank goodness. Not that it's a huge deal today. I'll be going to pick up my meds from Fed Ex tomorrow morning, and then tomorrow afternoon I'll be doing my injection. And then gotta work my way back to my normal injection day, cause this is gonna make for a kinda crappy weekend, but whatever. Gotta do what I gotta do huh?
Tomorrow morning though we've got some errands to run. Gonna be a busy day, lol. But whatever. It usually happens on Thursday - payday - but this week I was in a hurry to try to get back before my meds would have been here. But we didn't make it. oh well, we can get them in the morning.
I just started playing a game called Terra. It's a free MMO, and it's pretty cute. Hopefully I can get used to the controls after playing Guild Wars 2 for so long, lol. Gonna hopefully finish the story mission soon. Then I can officially say that I've played an MMO story mode all the way through, lol. I've never done that with any other MMO, so it'll be nice to be able to say.
For now, I'm gonna go enjoy my quiet time before the girls get home from school. LOVE YOU GUYS! I don't really say it enough. For taking the time to ready this, you guys are awesome.
LATER TATER
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