Well, met Ivy's teachers yesterday, and She is actually really nice. She's the new teacher this year, since one of the others has stopped working because she's had a baby and all that. Her new teacher is pregnant, due in November, but she has already made plans to have her mother, a retired teacher, take over while she's away for maternity leave. I think it's going to be ok, since she's going to introduce the students to her mother well before she has to be out. It is an interesting idea, and i just hope it all works out.
Speaking of Ivy and school, today is the last day of summer vacation, and i can decide if i'm emotional or not. I keep thinking about the fact that she's going to be gone from 8:50 - 3:20 monday through friday, and it's just going to be freaking weird. I'm sure that as the year rolls on, i will start to get used to it. And i'm hoping too that Desiree and I can fall into a routine that keeps us occupied and happy while sissy is gone. I'm sure that this year is going to be different, for sure, but it's only the first in a long line of school years to come, lol. So it's time to get used to it now. And i've got 3 years left before Desiree will start pre-kindergarten. So that's three years to get into the routine of Ivy being in school and me being home with Desiree. Then we are going to have to get used to Desiree and Ivy both being in school, which is going to be weird too. But probably about the time that Desiree starts school too i will start working again. I think that would be a good thing for me, just to find a part time job where i can work while they are at school, you know? i don't know yet if i will actually do it or not, but we shall see. Only time will tell.
Today is wednesday, the day before she starts school, and we went up to the Marble slab ice cream store and had some ice cream for the last time of the summer. It was good, and she seemed to enjoy i as well. It's hard to believe how close we are to her birthday too. Desiree will be a year old in 6 days, and Ivy will be 6 in 24 days. WOW, i mean, seriously. It's crazy to me for them to be getting so big. I remember the day Ivy was born, and now i have two, and it's just mindblowing. OMFG i swear, time flys too damn fast. But hey, they say it goes faster as you get older, and i guess 6 years is a big time span, i guess, lol. So yeah, whatever.
I know that for the first few days of Ivy being in school i'm going to try to focus on getting the house cleaned and organized so it will be easier to take care of. The living room looks pretty good still, with just the smaller mess that has been made through the last couple days that needs to be picked back up. Then the bedroom won't take long either, and Ruben and I can get the kitchen together relatively easily. The hardest thing is going to be cleaning and organizing Ivy's room. It's mainly just because she has a lot of stuff that really doesn't have anywhere to go right now. I need to buy some baskets, or totes, or something to put her stuffed animals in cause she has a million and a half, lol. Then she's got a lot of little things that need to be sorted back out and labeled and all that. It shouldn't take too terribly hard, but mainly time consuming. I plan on getting it done soon. Might take a little while before we can afford all the things that i will need to get them all fixed up, but that will be ok. It's just fine though. It will happen, and that's good enough. I hope that it will keep me busy, at least for the first few days she's in school, because those are going to be the hardest days for me. I guess i'm just too damn emotional.
I think i know what's going to be so difficult about her going back to school. And it's mainly just because i am fighting with being lonely anyway, even when both girls are home, and now one of them is going to school all day, and that's 6.5 hours a day i have to fill with something else. It's just going to be difficult for me. I hate it, so freaking much. GRRR. Need to find someone to do things with a day or two a week so i can get out of the house for a while. Eiter that, or I need to go to work a day or two a week so i can get out and be around people. I might see if i can work something out. I don't know, just have to see. BLAH.
Anyway, enough rambling for now. I might sign back on later and write some more if i need to vent my mind again. So keep your head up, stay strong, and be a better person tomorrow then you are today.
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