It's one of those days that i wish i had more time and energy to get things done. I hate only getting part of the way through. Today i wanted to get through with the girls clothes. Getting them all cleaned out and sorted through and get the stuff that doesn't fit out and all that. I got Ivy's clothes sorted through, hung up her long sleeved shirts, folded EVERY pair of her pants (and she's got a fuckton) and put them up, and folded all the skorts and shorts and skirts and t-shirts and put them in her drawers. I guess that's good enough for now, to be honest. As much as i hate not getting it done, i know that it's more than could be asked of me. Tomorrow, hopefully, i will feel up to getting Desiree's done too. Hers is going to be a lot more work. I need to go through and get the clothes that don't fit her out, get the ones that do fit folded and organized into his dresser. It shouldn't be too hard to get it done. It just takes so long, that sometimes i just don't have the time to do it. It's frustrating, to say the least. But we shall see what happens tomorrow.
I want to get the house cleaned all the way up within this next week. I need to buy some gloves to get the kitchen cleaned cause it's freaking mess and a half, and probably NASTY. I'm not worried about it too much, but it would be nice to have an actually clean house. The bathroom just needs to be straightened up again, which won't take long. Our bedroom is the same way, as is the living room. Ivy's room needs the most help right now, and then the kitchen is a very super close second. So those are going to be the rooms around the house i work on this week, and hopefully by this time next week, it will all be done. One thing at a time, and that's all that matters right? If it doesn't get completely done, then it doesn't get completely done. Not going to overexert myself by any means. Just if i keep feeling like i have the last two days, i might as well use it to do some good around the house.
This saturday i'm going to make it a point to get out of the house and go do something. Probably go see a movie. James was saying something about Jaqui wanting to see Cloudy with a chance of meatballs. Maybe we can meet up and go watch that. I want to see a scarry movie, but i also want to get to go out with friends, and if that's the way it has to be, then so be it.
Right now i'm in the middle of that transformation of myself. I am deturmined to not let things stress me out. There is a lot going on, and i need to focus on what's going on HERE AND NOW, and not what has already passed, or what's coming up. Right now is all that matters. I want to take things as they come, and that's what i've started doing. I know i've been doing things that some of my friends and family probably wouldn't like too much, but to be honest, i could care less. It makes ME happy, and it's the best thing for me and for my family. Mainly my girls. They deserve the best life possible. And i will do whatever it takes to give it to them.
So right now i'm going to sign off here and go finish the movie i had started so i can get to sleep. I'm tired, considering i have done quite a bit the last few days. So yeah, anyway, i'm outta here.
L8R
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