Ramblings of an exausted mother, part 2

Part one was written on my myspace blog. This is the second part. I've got a ton on my mind, and right now i have nobody to rant it out to.

I'm exausted, and overwhelmed, by everything that's been going on. I have such a hard time remembering who I am as a person sometimes, because i am so busy doing and being everything else. Right now, it's even worse. Both girls and I are sick, and it's just a pain in the ass. Ivy is very needy, and Desiree is CLINGY and GRUMPY as hell! I cannot stand when she's this grumpy, cause she doesn't listen to anything, and she gets pissed at the drop of a hat. It is just too much, i swear.

Then the house is dirty again, and i just don't have the energy to clean it back up right now. Ruben won't be able to help me that much, because he works nights, then pretty much comes home, plays games for a while, and goes to sleep. Then he wakes up kinda late, and we eat dinner, he plays games again, and goes to work. It's just too much, i swear. I know that i HAVE to get it cleaned back up before we really start packing, so can see what all we have in the house, and group it into the same boxes. I want to know what's going on with the house too. She hasn't called back yet. I was hopeing to hear something back this afternoon, but we didn't. BLAH, i hate this. I know that if this doesn't work out so well, we are going to start looking at other areas. Gonna probably take a trip to arkansas at some point, and look around there.

To be honest, i really could care less about where we end up, as long as we have some sense of stability, and we aren't moving with no job or place to go. So now it's a matter of figureing it all out. HOpefully we can do that quickly. It's just not worth it to me to worry about where we are going. Tomorrow at some point we should hear, hopefully. THen we can figure it all out from there.

Neway, i'm going to get off here, and try to get some stuff done. Try to get some of the house clean, Desiree to chill out, maybe run to the store for some more meds, and hopefully get to take a nap, at some point. I know i'm tired of feelnig like shit.

LATERS everyone!