overthinking

I'm overthinking a lot of things right now. I feel like there is SO MUCH that needs to be done. And in my mind the list is so long it's overwhelming. I know in reality it's probably nowhere near that bad. I just need to get off my butt and get it done.

Tomorrow, hopefully, Ruben and I will get in there and get Ivy's bedroom cleaned and organized again. ANd this time there are going to be some serious punishment for her letting it get bad again. I just hope that i get some backup on all of that.

Then we are gonna get some of our errands out of the way. I need to run to the DHS and pick up the forms to fill out for the girls soonercare again. Because without it, i can't get the other things that i need to get done for them accomplished.

After their soonercare is reinstated, i need to call and make Ivy her dentist appointment. And i need to make an appointment for Desiree with the dentist and the doctor. She has some shots that she needs to get and she hasn't had a dentist appointment yet, and i know i need to get it done earlly with her. We aren't going to play that game again. But that has to happen after the soonercare is back

And then i need to find last years tax return and get it and our last bank statement sent off to the lady for Ruben's charity account. And then i need to get a letter from the DHS stating that he doesn't qualify for medicaid or whatever so that we can get the charity case for the doctors too. That's a big huge bill that we just really don't want to have to deal with. I need him to help me figure that out

Then i need to get the house cleaned back up. I'm tired of it looking so cluttered. So i might get ahold of my sister in law and see if she can't help me get it done. I don't know. It's hard to get someone to help me. I always feel embarrased about it all. I guess i will have to just see.

Right now, i need to get off the computer and relax. I have a headache and a chest ache from cleaning mold out of a tiny bathroom with bleach. It sucks, but i refuse to let someone know how bad it is right now. Unless it doesn't get better, i doubt i will say anything. And if it gets worse, we will go from there. I guess i never thought about how bad it would be in such a small space. At least it got done. I just hope that he says it's good enough. I'm not sure i can handle much more.

So i'm outta here. Might try to get Desiree to take a nap so i can lay down too. I know a nap would do me good. Tonight for dinner i'm just gonna do chicken marrinara, which is easy. It's been too long of a day for much else. I feel like shit, ugh.