i want to believe that life has something good in store for us. After all of the negative things we've dealt with in our lives it would be a very welcome change for something really really good to happen to us. I know that life doesn't work that way. And nobody can explain why some people have to deal with so much more negative things than others. Don't get me wrong, our lives haven't been as bad as some people i know. We have always had a roof over our head (even if we were shoved in one room) And always had food in our stomachs (even if it was just one meal a day) and always had clothes on our backs (even if they were hand me downs and ratty) we've never had to live in our cars. We've never gone without food or clothes. I know people who have. People who live under bridges, or in cars, etc. I know people who don't get to eat every day, and who are so thankful for a bath or shower when they can get one. It makes me feel bad sometimes that i complain about the way my life goes. In the grand scheme of things, we are very very blessed. It's a matter of letting myself see that, which is easier said than done sometimes.
we are STILL waiting on the W2 to come in. And because it's dragging out, we are starting to second guess our choices we've had made for the last couple months. Like the car. We've been debating on the whole need for a second car. With Ruben's schedule being what it is, we rarely need two cars. And if we only focused on ONE car that would save us a considerable amount of money. And allow us to do the other things that we are really wanting to do. we've still got a lot of debating to do about it. At least until the W2 actually comes in. Then we will figure it out for sure and make the final decision.
I know there is still a lot that we are still going to do, come hell or high water. We are paying gamefly and netflix for the full year for sure, and then we are getting Ivy her lifetime membership for Jumpstart so we don't have to do the montly bullshit again, AND paying the car insurance for the year too so we don't have to mess with that again either. Then, if and when we EVER get my settlement, we are going to pay the cable bill for the year so we have all that extra money. THAT is all happening for sure, along with getting my glasses replaced. So once that is all taken care of, we will know for sure what our car budget is going to be, and what else we will have left once it's said and done.
We might have someone who wants to buy our current car instead of us. We need to sit down and discuss all that jazz too, so we know for sure how much we are going to have to put down toward that. Tomorrow the owner of the car is going to come by and we are gonna have to kinda hint at it and figure it all out. Honestly, i kinda hope that she can buy the car, and we can get another car that's a bit cheaper, and still have money left over to actually do something else. Cause i would go freaking crazy if we got the income tax return and every penny of it was spent on something else and we didn't get to go do something FUN. I'm going freaking crazy being stuck in the same damn rut for so long. I guess we will see what happens though. Just depends on Ruben and what decision he makes.
Ivy has been sick for the last WEEK. A week ago today she came home sick from school, running a fever and complaining that she was hurting from head to toe. Ever since she's been running a highish (101-103) fever, hurting so bad that she doesn't want to get up and even play. We couldn't afford to even drive to the doctor, let alone pay for any prescriptions she would have gotten or whatnot. Their soonercare has expired, and i haven't been able to get it back yet due to missing some information. So we just waited it out, because both Ruben and I both believed it was just a strain of the flu, and that they wouldnt' really be able to do anything for her anyway. So we kept her home, kept her comfy, and kept her fever in check. Well, today when she woke up, her fever hadn't even broke 100 (it was still a fever, because it was JUST UNDER 100) So hopefully that means it's done with, cause i hate seeing her sick. Monday they are out of school, so we are kinda planning on going and doing something, and i hope she's going to feel up to it. I might (MIGHT, Depending on the weather) try to take them to the zoo since it's free on mondays through february, and if we kinda bundle up we coudl hit the zoo for an hour or two, and then meet up with Michelle and her girls to go do something else. Maybe chuck e cheese if it isn't so damn busy, Or a movie, or something like that. Maybe even just either go to her house or come here and do something. I don't know though. I just know that we need to go do something out of the house because we are ALL going stir crazy. Here's hopeing the weather is ok.
My house is a bit of a mess. It's frustrating after having it so clean for so long. But i just can't keep up with it with the weather being so crazy, cause it makes me feel like crap, and i can't move too well. And of course, it is hard to keep up with with both girls home, even with one sick. And you combine the two and it's just mess and mayhem. Hopefully things will settle down, the pain will subside, and i can get off my ass and get it back where i want it to be. the biggest thing is to get the house organized. The clothes primarily. So i guess we will see what happens. It's all about money at this point.
For now, i'm gonna go take some more painkillers, turn the heat up a touch, and try to find a movie or tv show or something that will keep my attention for more than a few moments. SOO, laters
LYZ
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