WTH is going on here??

I just don't understand what's going on here. Ruben said he picked up my cards off the bathroom sink Saturday night. He said that he had them all night long. And when he came to bed he said he sat them on the edge of the love seat (where i set things all the time) so that i would be able to find them the next morning. But Sunday i don't remember seeing them, or picking them up, or anything like that. Desiree keeps telling me "they put in pocket" but i can't get anything else out of her. I'm sure they are in this house. We've exausted all the other possibilities. THey aren't in the car, aren't over at the in-laws house, and if i had dropped them when carrying things out to the car Sunday, the girls would have let me know or picked them up. SOO, that means they are still here. The issue is WHERE!

I swear, we have looked in all the OBVIOUS places, all the not so obvious places, and the way off the wall places. Ruben even checked the dishwasher. Yes, not kidding. Between us we have looked : In the big bathroom (under the sink, beside and behind the toilet, IN the toilet, under the cabinents) and the same in the small bathrom. IN the kitchen (under the counters, IN the counters, in the drawers, in the microwave, UNDER the mocrowave, behind the stove, in Ruben's terrain shelves) THe living room we even TORE the bottom liner of the loveseat and couch to be sure that they weren't in there. THe bookshelves, the movie cabinent, the audio cabinent, the entertainment center, the computer desk, even IN the computer tower because Ruben had it open trying to fix it. IN the girls bedroom, we searched through the toys, the books, their clothes, under the bed, in their entertainment center, etc. It's seriously driving me crazy. THe only room that HASN'T been looked at completely is Ruben and I's bedroom. We searched through the dirty clothes, through my sewing desk, through the drawers i have my blankets in, the cabinent i keep my books and stuff in, and our master bathroom. There are the clean clothes, the closet, and a couple other things too. But i just don' tknwo.

I keep going back to the loveseat. Something tells me it's either there, or it's in some stupid of the wall completely wacky spot. For tonight, i'm not gonna freak out over it. At least not until i've had something to eat. Then i'm going to go and hit our bedroom hard and see what i can come up with. Either that or try the loveseat again, although i'm pretty sure it's not there after looking through it for so long yesterday. I just really don't have a clue where else to look. I might see if i can get my sister in law to come by and help me look tomorrow. Get a new pair of eyes in here to help . She said she'd come by for an hour or so and just help throw ideas around. I really have no idea what's going on, and the stress is getting to me bad.

At least i've gotten my pain under control for today. I've discovered that wearing socks and keeping my feet warm helps keep the leg from hurting AS BAD, and i found my wrap for it too, which helps when it starts to get BAD. So that's at least putting me in a BETTER mood.

I've got great friends. And i want everyone to know how much i appreciate them. I"ve been all emotional and homesick today, and wanted to let everyone know i MISS YOU! Hopefully i can get to see them sometime soon, cause i'm going crazy.

When Ruben gets his W2 we are going straight in and getting our taxes filed. WE are getting the tibouron (SP?) and getting it all fixed and ready to drive. We are LOOKING at another car. We are going to pay the rest of the car we have now so that my sis in law can have it and pay us back for it, and that way we've got that taken care of. And then we are setting things aside for some other things. I know i'm getting my glasses replaced, and i'm getting a trip to arkansas, and HOPEFULLY we have enough money for me to go do something for my birthday. Hopefully we get the w2 before then. I desperately need a girls night out. Maybe go to a movie, and stop and have a drink somewhere. Just get to spend some time away. The same old routine rut i'm in is about to drive me completely insane.

Ugh, for now i've got to go fight with Ivy to get her homework done, Fix Ruben's dinner, and Get Desiree ready for bed. UGH, when will i get a freaking break!