New Year - New Me

At least, i hope so. Last year (well, just over a year) has been a horrible year. Between the car accident, Ivy and Desi being so sick, losing the house and having to move, having to find a car last moment when the other got repoed, Ivy having trouble at school, Ruben almost DYING, and Me being sick, this year has been one rollercoaster from hell. And emotionally i've not been much better. I know i've been hard to deal with, hard to keep up with, and hard to handle. And i'm sorry for that. I know it's not what most people want to do with their days.

This year, i have great expectations, and wonderful plans.

I have no REAL strict new years resolutions. The only real things i'm doing are building on things that i've already started the last little while, and giving myself motivation to get things done.

1) I want to be happy with what i've got, and not constantly think about things that i WANT that aren't that important. I have a great family, a roof over my head, a car that runs, and clothes on my back. Nothing else is really that important, so i need to stop fretting over it.

2) i'm going to strive to make each day better than the day before. Even if it's just a TINY bit better, and even if it's only for a few minutes, that's what i want to accomplish. I want to be able to look at the day and see something awesome that i've accomplished, done, or seen. I want to help someone find a reason to smile. I want to help someone, or do something for someone that they couldn't do for themselves. That's a big one

and finally 3) i want to be more stable financially. And i think with the plan we've set out, we can make that work. Paying the car insurance, cable, gamefly, and netflix alone will give us quite a bit of extra money for cushion during the year. And will make for an awesome year, and an absolutely awesome christmas. I'll be able to finally get the house organized the way i want. I'll finally be able to get the wardrobe i want. And i'll finally be able to help the girls with the things that they want and need and not feel like i'm taking away from something else.

Here's hopeing that they all go as well as i hope they will.

For now, i need to go to bed. I've been drinking, i'm a bit buzzed, and i'm exausted.

NIGHT