mind racing = no nap for me

i went to lay down and take a nap. I laid there for over an hour. But no matter how hard i tried to clear my mind, something else would sneak in and take it's place and i'd be right back to thinking too much. It's not about anything particular. just lots of random things. Thinking about the lawyer, and how crazy it was that i got all pissed off about something that i knew was gonna happen anyway. I guess i just wanted to believe that things would be different. But whatever. Not the end of the world. Just as long as it's taken care of soon, and i can stop dealing with them, i'll be happy. It's been draging out way too long now. It's been over a year since i stopped treatment. Seriously? It's a bit much don't ya think? Again, maybe that's just me being naive to the way the legal system works. Hopefully we can get shit taken care of within the next month or two so i can stop dealing with it and stressing over it. ya know? Thinking about my house, and all the things i'd like to do with it. There are about a billion things we just really do not need right now. Lots of little things that need to be thrown away, or sold, etc. Here in the next week i think i'm gonna get in there and start seperating things out to sell and such. I know we've got a lot of clothes that need to go. And lots of toys i need to convince Ivy to get rid of. The majority of the clothes and stuff are already in totes, just need to be sure that there isn't anything we want to keep in them. Then i'm gonna load them up in the car and take them to one of the local charities (goodwill, masters market, etc) and donate them. All baby clothes will be given to someone who i know can use them (like Savanah). And all the papers and stuff will be put in the filing cabinent that i've been using as a nightstand. Then all the unimportant papers will be put in a pile for the fireplace kindling. once i have the closet cleaned out, i can move things around so they are easier to use and stuff. I need to put another shelf in the closet for some of the boxes and stuff i want to get put away, but that's gonna require the space etc. So it's just about getting in there and getting it done. Thinking about the meals for tonight and tomorrow, and what we will need to pick up this weekend when we get our food stamps. And about how much i love this DHS over the other one we were at for so long. The last one if you turned in paperwork late, you weren't gonna get your stamps on the first, and probably not for at least a few days after that. I can turn the paperwork in up here halfway through the last month, and still get the paper saying that it is approved before the end of the month. They actually do their damn jobs. It's nice. And our stamps actually went up by two bucks this month i think. Which i find kinda funny, since the paycheck stubs i turned in were more this time than last, lol. IDK, whatever. At least we have them for sure for another 6 months. Wanna do something special for dinner this weekend though. Something we haven't done in a while. No idea what that might be though. I need to pull out a recipe book and see if i can get some ideas. But for tonight i'm doing goulash, and then tomorrow i'm gonna do ramen and fried eggs (never thought it would taste as good as it does, but it's damn good). thinking that if the weather is good this weekend, we will go out and do some early morning stuffs Saturday morning. Gonna be nice i hope. And maybe then Saturday night we will have one of Ivy's friends stay the night with us, if her mama/aunt/whoever lets her and she wants to. IDK. The most important things that i need to get done is to buckle down and get laundry done. got TONS of blankets that need to be washed. If i can clear them out, then my room will be far less cluttered. Once i get the WALL o laundry i've got done i want to move the dresser out under the posters i've got in there. That way it's easier to get to, easier to use, and clears up some space in the closet for other storage stuffs. Maybe i can get another cleaning job or two, make a little extra money, and use it to get storage stuff. i know Desiree's dresser needs to be fixed. i know Ivy needs a new dresser (although, if i can get in the garage at his mothers house and get my old dresser, she might be able to use it for a while. Otherwise i need to get her one that works) We need to clean out and organize the media cabinent, and bookshelf in the living room. We need to organize Ruben's game stuff in the kitchen/game area. And i need better storage of Ivy and Desi's toys. They have a lot, and we really don't have them organized that well. Some totes for the stuffed animals, or the nets to hang some of them up in. Some actual drawers (the little cloth ones, or the pop up ones) would work. i want to get some of the 3/3 shelves and drawers to put in them for some of the smaller stuff, like the mister potato head, the blocks, the littlest pet shops, etc. That would be a great way to organize them, because i could take a pic of the item and put it in the front so that Ivy can never say she doesn't know where something goes. Heck, i just need to do that anyway. Would make things a hell of a lot easier. i might break down and get some of the dollar tree shoe boxes and use them to put stuff in. They stack great, and would fit on the shelves without much trouble. Maybe when i get a little extra money i'll pick some of them up. And then i want to get a hanging basket to put her socks and underwear in, and some more hangers and another rod to hang her pants on. That way we can get rid of the dresser that's in there completely. I bet i could do that pretty cheap. I guess i need to do some research huh? Just have to see what happens. Today Ivy has her walking club thing i think. I hope she dressed warm enough, cause i think they are doing it outside. I'll meet her up there with a bottle of water after school, and pick up her backpack, but i don't think i'm gonna stay. desiree doesn't need to be out in the wind and cold that long, and with me already getting an ear infection i just dont need it either. But that's ok. Just means that she won't come home until 5. Hopefully Bunny (her little friend from another apartment) doens't come by while she's there. If she does though, i'll just tell her that she won't be back until 5 today, and see what happens. I know i need to work something out so they know she can't come over every single day and stay for so long. it's tiring to have two kids, and adding another on top of it is really hard too. Maybe i can get Bunny to bring her homework with her, and they can both do their homework at the table before they go play. might keep it a tad quieter, and that way Ivy gets her homework done before 9 at night. It's frustrating to have to fight with her over homework. So tomorrow i don't think we have anything we HAVE to go do, which will be nice. We can stay home and work on the house a little bit. It's a mess, and with me not feeling good i haven't been able to get as much done as i'd liek (although, i did get the Desktop computer taken apart, dusted out, removed a part that was faulty and making it not start up, and put it all back together, AND cleaned off the computer desk around it so it's actually usable) It's nice to actually be able to see the top of the desk again, lol. There is some trash to pick up, which won't take long, and some little stuff that needs to find a place. So hopefully i can get the living room at least taken care of tomorrow GOOD. Just have to see how i feel tomorrow. Today, i'm feeling blah. So trash is probably it today, lol. Oh well, whatever. not the end of the world Then friday we will go grocery shopping, so hopefully tomorrow we can get the living room AND kitchen taken care of so it's easier to put the groceries up when we get home. Get everything home and organized. for now, i need to pay the electric bill (and i swear if customer service screwed up and i lose my average monthly billing and have to fight with them over it i'm gonna be PISSED) And then Friday we need to pick up the part of Rent we can pay and set up the payment for the other part. TWO DAYS late and it's gonna cost me an extra 30 bucks. UGH. But whatever. At least it's all gonna get paid. SOOO, i'm off here. LATERS