random ramblings

I find myself with about a billion different things going through my head. Things that need to be done, people that need to be called, places i need to go. And at the moment i'm dealing with a lot of stress. It's overwhelming sometimes. I mean, don't get me wrong. Things are actually going really well. It's not BAD what's going on. Just stressful and overwhelming in the sense that there is soo very much of it. Dentist appointments, doctors appointments, shots, shopping, lawyers office bs, bills, clean house, Ivy's school stuff, errands for family, etc, etc, etc. It feels like the list is never ending.

SOO, today, i'm going to take the day OFF. I'm not gonna stress over the mess in my house. I'm not gonna worry about going to the store or anywhere else. My health is more important. And being overly stressed is not the way to stay healthy. My eyes have been twitching, my stomach has been upset. And in the grand scheme of things, i know it's pretty silly. I mean, nothing going on is THAT important. Our settlement will happen when it happens. THe bills are getting paid. The girls are healthy for now. I've gotta get their appointments made, but even that i can do later. I'm just ready for things to get settled and for things to go better.I know that things aren't going to be much better than they are right financially. Especially since the settlement isn't going to be anywhere near what we thought it might be. HOPEFULLY we can get enough to pay the car insurance for a year. THAT would be ok with me. The chances of that though are pretty slim to none. They are aiming for 15,000 total. They take their ridiculous cut, and that leaves just over 10,000. And unless they get the bills reduced, that leaves me with just a couple hundred. That totally sucks, but whatever. As long as they get the shit taken care of and i stop getting bills from all the medical stuff. They are totally not doing their damn jobs because i'm still getting bills and they are sending shit to collections. Um, NO. I swear if that causes me to lose what little settlement i might end up with becaue they are stupid enough to not get the job done, then i will be PISSED. Beyond dissatisfied with their service. Will NOT being recommending them to ANYBODY, EVER! Just sayin, lol.

My Ivy girl is home, finally. It was definently weird having her gone all week. Don't know if we can do that again. It was just weird.

For the rest of the day today, i'm just gonna chill. Maybe watch a few movies, play some games, read a book, write, draw, something that i WANT to do. I might see about finding all the social security cards so i can go out to the mission this week and get some food and stuff. If i can, that would be good. It definently wouldn't hurt to have a little extra stuff. Just have to see what happens. Might see if i can't get the girls some more clothes or whatever too. I know Desi needs some more bottoms.

right now though, i'm gonna get something to eat, give Desiree a bath, and maybe try to watch the rest of inception. That is, if i can get the TV away from Ruben, lol. If not, i might load it on the computer and watch it there. LATERS