wish i knew what was going on

I have no idea what's going on, but i seriously wish it would go away.

I've had some serious pains in my chest. And not like allergy, can't breathe, cough your head off pains either. More like, HEART hurting problems. The last week or so, it's gone from what it normally was, with the skipping a beat every few HOURS at most, to where it skips two to three times a MINUTE. It makes my shoulder feel like it's on fire sometimes. My left arm goes numb and tingly. And on top of it, my head hurts, i'm dizzy, feel really weak and lightheaded like i'm gonna pass out, and feel sick to my stomach. It's frustrating. I have things i need to be doing. It freaks me out, to be honest. Has me all worried it's something serious.

Another friend of mine has heart issues too. He's had 5 different heart attacks. He says it's alot like the way his disease started. And he's actually a bit worried too, since it's starting to interfere with my day to day activities. I just hope i can keep enough strength to clean on base tomorrow. I'm a bit worried that i won't have the energy, or that the heat will make things even worse. All i know is i HAVE to make it through tomorrow. We have to have that money. No ifs ands or buts about it. I just hope i can get through it ok.

If it's still this bad, or worse, by the end of the week, i'm going to have to suck it up and go to the doctor. Right now, i can't breathe, the pain in my chest is TIGHT, and very intense. I hope i don't get worse TODAY. I can't. That timing would be too horrible. So i have to just say a prayer, and hope that i can make it through at least cleaning tomorrow before i have to go.

BLAH! Just make it go away. I hope it's not something i'll have to deal with the rest of my life.