emotional

I'm having a hard time keeping my emotions in check today.

Ivy is leaving to stay with my parents for a week. They are taking her to Silver Dollar City, up in Branson. I was hopeing that we'd be able to go with her at the same time, since i know i love it up there, and seriously wanted to get to appreciate it with her. But alas, we are broke, so we can't. Not the end of the world. We'd have to make the trip in a super hot car anyway. This way we can just do things around town with Desiree. Although, i'm not sure i'm gonna wanna go out and do something just the two of us. I can't get as interested in something a two year old wants to do. Frustrating.

i want my house to be perfect when they get here. Not that they haven't seen my house all messed up. It would just be nice for them to actually get to see it all perfectly done, so they can actually see the apartment, and not the mess in it. It's not TOO far from being done. But it's irritating.

Mainly, the irritation started when i woke up this morning. Ruben was supposed to wake me up at 9 and help me clean for tomorrow, so all i'd have to worry about would be packing for Ivy and keeping them occupied. BUT, i woke up at almost 11, and found him asleep on the couch. So no help cleaning. And i don't have any motivation to do it myself really. I've gotten some of it done, but there's still quite a bit that needs to be done. Maybe he will wake up a bit early, and help me get it finished.

I need to get back up and get moving again, or i'll never get it done, ugh. I still have to finish cleaning the kitchen, my bedroom, and Ivy's bedroom, and then i have to find and pack all of Ivy's stuff for her trip. BLAH. And i have no idea where most of her clothes are at the moment! OY. Gonna be a long day. LATERS