I miss you

<(Most of my friends are in other states. This is not about one person. It's about a few. If you think it's about you, it's possible it is. But ask before you take offence, k?)>

It's the moments in the morning, when the house is still quiet, and the kids are still asleep, when i miss you so much it hurts. And i wonder if i even cross your mind that early in the morning.

It's every time the phone rings, and i pray that it's you calling me because i miss you so much it hurts but i can't call because everytime i do you're busy, or at work, or or or and can't talk, but it never is you, and it hurts a little more each time.

It's every time i read something you're doing with someone else, and i know i'm too far away to join you, or i realize that even though i'm close enough, you didn't think of me, and that makes me want to curl up and cry because i miss you so much it hurts, and it feels like you don't even remember me

It's the moments when i remember how far away you are, and i hate being here while you are down there, because i miss you so much it hurts. I just pray you remember me the way i remember you, and that time and space hasn't made your memory of me fade.

It's every time i hear you mention your best friend, and it's not me. It makes my heart hurt, and tears fall from my eyes, because you are the only best friend i have, and i miss you so much it hurts, but it feels like you've lost me along the way.

It's the moments late at night, when the house is quiet and the rest of the world is asleep, when i miss you so much it hurts. When i dream of the good times we had. And i just wonder if i ever cross your mind.

Do you even miss me? Even just a little bit? I feel very forgotten, up here without you, so far away. I wish it were possible to reach through the phone and give hugs, cause i could sure use one right now. But i can't, and i'm not even sure you'd want one. Am i still in your heart they way you are in mine?

Cause i miss you so much it hurts, but you go on like you're just fine.
Do i even cross your mind?