Sometimes the answer is no.....

We all pray, in one way or another. Be it for important things, or crazy things, or emotional things, we've all said some kind of prayer. Sometimes we pray so hard it feels like our hearts will explode from emotion. Sometimes our prayers are so loud others can hear them as well. Sometimes it seems like all we do is pray, and beg, and pleed, and wish for the things we THINK we want and or need. Leaving the rest of the world behind in search for the things we pray about.

But one thing i've learned over the last little while is this. God ALWAYS hears our prayers. Sometimes though, the answer is no. So we can pray the same prayer over and over and over, but still not get what we pray for, because God has other plans for us. Sometimes the best thing we can do is to pray the prayer once, and leave it in Gods hands. He takes care of his children. And if you have the faith in that, you will never want for the necessities in life.

That has taken a long time for me to learn. LONG long time. I used to blame him for everything wrong in my life. I never wanted to believe that it was someone elses fault, including mine. I know now that most of the things in my life that were wrong were my fault. God kept trying to hand me the things i needed and wanted, and instead i'd throw them back.

The last few days i've been praying a lot. Praying that the unexpected expenses would be taken care of. That we would be ok. And my prayers were answered, and the answer wasn't no. Between Ruben's boss, my mom and dad and his mom and dad, we are going to be more than fine. :) I feel so blessed to have the family and friends we have. They are keeping us above water.

So now, tonight, i can get some good sleep. Gonna take my meds, and crash. GOODNIGHT. :) And thank you to all who have prayed for us. you guys are awesome. :)