I refuse

I refuse to be upset over things i can't control. I refuse to let them hold me back. I refuse to always be looking to the past. I instead will focus on teh moment. I refuse to constantly worry about the future, becuase we aren't guarenteed tomorrow. I refuse to cry because someone doesn't like me, because it's not up to them anyway.

Today was one of those days i've been waiting for for a while now. When the fact that things have been going pretty good finally turn around and smacks us in the face. It's not the end of the world. I can make it work, but damn if it doesn't annoy me.

I never got letter from the DHS telling us how much we qualified for on our Food Stamps, so i new we wouldn't have them this morning. Doesn't mean i didn't look to find out if they were there, but of couse they weren't. SOO, first thing monday morning i have to contact them and find out why it is taking so long. And what's going on. We can't afford not to have them for too long. As it is we already spent more than we could safetly afford. Thank goodness for family and friends, because we would be in the shit right now if we didn't have help from them. And then the car has been leaking oil for a few weeks now, an today we went to find out where it was coming from. The part that is leaking is going to cost us 25 dollars. Which right now we don't have, so we are doing what we can to make it last until we can afford it. Sucks that it wasn't something as simple as a hose we could black tape up until we could afford it. But life happens, and it will be ok.

Today we are working on cleaning the house. Tonight we are supposed to have a friend over to play some games and enjoy some company. And if all works out, one of those friends is one that i used to clean for. So i want to be sure that my house looks good when he shows so he doesn't think i'm crazy, ya know? lo.

For right now though, i think i'mgonna have to lay down and cover my head until painkillers can kick in and knock this headache out. It's starting to get annoying.

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