Rollercoaster days

One moment i'm fine, the next i'm not. One minute i'm happy, the next i'm in tears, the next i just want to scream. It does get frustrating. But at the same time, i think i'm finally getting the hang of bringing myself back to center.

Saturday, when we didn't get our food stamps, that usually would have pissed me off and stressed me out. Instead, we just made it work. Tomorrow i'm going to call and find out what's going on. And if we aren't gonna get them for a few more days, then i've got plans in place for that too. IF we don't get them tomorrow, Wednesday i'm going to go down and hit the food pantry down sunnylane to get through. And then, if by some fucked up chance, we don't get them until the 10th, then i'll hit another one on Friday just to be sure we can make it through. SOO, i'm not stressd out about it. I will make it all work.

Saturday night was awesome. The one friend that WAS gonna come over didn't make it. But the one that did, we all had a few drinks and played warmachine. And i got lucky lucky. I actually managed to beat Ruben! Yeah, it was totally easy because he had to use up all his stuff on Daniel. So yeah. But that was nice. I was up super late, and hungover the next morning, but it was totally worth it. And i know if certain friends knew about that, then i'd have hell to pay. But whatever. We will figure it all out, lol. It was one time in a LONG time. So yeah.

Sunday morning Ruben let me sleep in. Then i went and did laundry, and it wasn't too bad. Got to enjoy a little nap with Desiree, watch a movie, and get laundry done pretty quick. I'm so glad we got the dryer when we did, cause it actually works, lol. And sometime soon the agitator in the washer will be replaced, and it will all work out great. Then i came home and did chicken and rice for dinner, and we just relaxed a bit before bed and work.

This morning we got up and had to run to pick up a couple things. Nothing serious. Just butter and water, etc. Got that taken care of, and then i was basically home for the day. Took the chance to relax and try to ease tension i've been holding. Although i'm not CONCIOUSLY stressing, i know i hold it in my shoulders and neck and my feet. SOO, i took a good long bath and soaked. It helped. But i still have a headache. Oh well, whatever.

Tomorrow, if the food stamps aren't on there, i have to call and find out what's going on. Make sure she actually got all the information, and that it won't be too much longer. Otherwise, i need to pitch a fit. I've done everything i'm supposed to have done, and she is the one that made the appointment so late in the month, and then didn't have my information, which i brought another copy of that same day. She has had at least 7 days (business days too) to get it taken care of. I'm sorry, but i don't understand how you can't enter one page of information on file and get it to the supervisor in time for them to be on the card by the first. I'm not sure what's up, but damn. It's frustrating. I guess we will see what happens

And then i have to go pick up a little money from the in-laws, and hit the bank to get the part of the rent we can afford right now. Then we will pay the rest ONE DAY LATE. Seriously? how crappy is that, lol. oh well. Gotta do what you gotta do. Just hope we don't get screwed in this whole thing. Guess we will see what actually happens.

Hopefully tomorrow i will actually feel like getting some stuff done. Gotta get that money and cash the check and try to pay the rent. Need to get some laundry put up and the house cleaned back up. Then maybe i'll actually feel like playing a game for a bit. I've got Lego Harry Potter right now, and it's a gamefly game, so i need to actually play it and not hold on to it for forever so it ends up costing us a whole bunch.

For now though, i'm gonna talk to a few friends for a few minutes, and then hit the bed. Here's hopeing i can actualy get a good nights sleep and wake ready for tomorrow. And here's hopeing i wake up to find the food stamps on the card to take that stress away. NIGHT