OMG where did the year go? Sometimes it feels like it was dragging, and then you turn around and it's already November. It's hard to believe how fast time actually goes when you're busy and enjoying most of life. Yeah, we had some crappy things happen, but who doesn't? Honestly, with it being November, i can feel myself getting a little anxious. The last two Novembers have been crappy. Two years ago was the car accident, and last year Ruben was in the hospital. I can't believe THAT was a year ago, seriously. That was terrifying, him being in the hospital and almost dying! :( I know if he gets sick this year, i am forceing him to go to the doc as soon as i can tell it's bad. We aren't risking that again. And of course i am seriously careful anywhere we drive. I kinda avoid certain blind spots and stuff like that, and if i DO drive down somewhere that has a lot of them, i slow down and keep a serious eye on the cars around me. I still have panic attacks sometimes thinking about what happened. But i also have to remind myself that i had been driving for 10 years, and only ever had fender benders, so one big accident in all that time the odds are actually really good that, as long as i'm careful and pay attention, there won't be another one (unless there is another stupid driver). Of course, i'm always going to be cautious of that, but i have been doing a lot better about being less afraid of the car, which is always a good thing.
The girls are doing great right now. Ivy is doing wonderful in school. She's already hit all the benchmark levels she needs to hit for the YEAR, and it's only been the first nine weeks. So that's awesome. She's making A's and B's all across the board. I just hope she doesn't have the problems i had later on that made it more difficult. She isn't showing any signs, yet, so hopefully we won't have to worry about it. It was the end of the second grade (which we are coming up on) when we moved into the new school and had so much trouble with the teachers. We don't plan on moving anytime soon (as long as everything keeps going the way it is. We are always prepared for if we do end up having to. Hope for the bbest, prepare for the worst, etc) So she shouldn't have to worry about that. She's making new friends here in the complex, and at school. Some of the less friendly people here (and the more ghetto people - And i don't mean that in a horrible way. They are just not that great. Messy, mean, loud, etc) are starting to move out. The office and maintenence are doing great jobs keeping up with everything. Saturday, the sink got clogged up and backed up into the kitchen sinks, and we called the office, and less than 5 minutes later, the maintenence was in our house working on it. And it was fixed within 30 mins. So i can't complain about that at all, ya know? And Desiree is learning new things every day. she is so smart too. Having her big sister and I home with her most of the time, she picks up things so well. She knows all her shapes, her colors, certain songs, she has an amazing memory. She uses big words, and knows what they mean. Which i find really awesome, ya know? They use "dellectable (sp?), delightful, delicious, amazing, stupendious, and a few others. And they use them the right way. It is seriously great. I really think Desiree is on the gifted end of things. I guess we will see as she gets a bit older what happens. She starts pre-k next year, and she is super excited. The only thing that might hold her back is the fact that she is so terrified of potty training. her biggest fear is pooping in her panties, and she will SCREAM about that until you take them back off her. It's crazy. So hopefully we can get her over that before she has to go, otherwise she won't get to go :(
I know since i've changed a few things that i was doing, i'm feeling a lot better. All around healthier. I stopped smoking. i stopped drinking all the time (i still drink on saturday nights, but that's it), I cut soda out of my diet. I quit eating lots f sweets, and just sitting around and snacking all the time. i make sure to eat three square meals a day, and sometimes a snack or two when i need it. And i walk Ivy back and forth to school every day. And we do a lot of walking on the weekends. I know i've lost inches around my waist. In the last three years, since Desiree was born, I have lost almost 20 inches around my waist! I was 52 inches around at my biggest right after she was born!!! OMG, i felt so damn fat. I'm down to 33-34. And i sat at almost 160 for almost the first year, until i started really making an effort to lose it. The last time i weighed myself, i wa at 145. And that was a while ago. I think i'm gonna go weigh myself and find out where i'm at now. I just hope i have either stayed the same, or lost. I will be upset if i've gained. We will see. BRB. YAY!!! I just weighed myself, and i have lost just over 4 lbs! May only be water weight, but i'll take it. I know i feel healthy and happy and that's all that really matters. It's a good feeling, to say the least, to be heading in the right direction. I'll eventually get back down to where iw ant to be (110-120) even if it takes forever, lol. Just gotta keep going. I know if i worked for it, it wouldn't take that long. I might start doing some pilates or the ultimate workout for 30 mins or so each day between the time Desiree goes down for a nap and I pick ivy up from school. Then i'd be back down where i want to be in no time ;)
Right now, i'm gonna get up and clean a little bit. I want to get the house clean before Ruben wakes up tonight. So i've still got a few hours. Bout an hour away from Desiree's naptime. So I'm gonna go feed us both, and get some cleaning done. Then maybe load up the ultimate work out to do when she's down for her nap. Just a 30 minute work out. Maybe even 15. Or I might just do something else. For now though, i'm outta here. LATERS
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