This moment called life

The last week I've had a lot of time to think

About MOMENTS

The moments that take your breath away

from beauty, or fear, or something amazing happening

The moments that make you want to cry

and the ones that make you want to laugh

We often forget that our lives are short

Less than 100 years

which in the grand scheme of things is nothing

And some doen't even live that long

Sometimes we take tomorrow for granted

Like we feel that we are guarenteed to wake up tomorrow

That we can put off whatever we don't get to today

because we can always do it tomorrow, right?

But what if tomorrow never comes?

What if you go to sleep tonight and don't wake up tomorrow?

It would be heartbreaking for friends and family, yes

But it's more than that. 

If you knew you would die in your sleep tonight

would you be happy with how you lived?

With who you were, and how you treated people?

Could you look back and say "I'm happy"?

Because if not, you're not living life to the fullest

You're missing the beauty of the moments

that we so often take for granted.

So call that friend you haven't spoken to in a while

Hug your mom

Watch the sunset with someone you love

Lay in the grass and watch the clouds pass

Be the person you've always wanted to be

Do the things you've always dreamed of

I know, it's not as easy as that.

If it were, everyone would already be doing it.

But every day you are alive is another day you have

to change your life for the better.

Hiding behind the negative

Always asking "Why"

instead of "WHY NOT!"

Making excuses why you "can't"

Instead of overcoming the WON'T

I've been one of those people most of my life.

Ask anybody who's known me long enough.

I can be negative, and miss the good

because I'm too concerned with the distant future

or with a past I can't change.

It wasn't until recently when that changed.

When things in my life started to go really bad.

Some of you know what's going on.

Most of you do not

(but don't take it personally -

trust me, it's not all that anyway)

I realized that I was scared

That I was making excuses

That I was HIDING

So I stood up

Shook myself off

And smiled.

I'm still alive

I still have the most amazing friends

I have the greatest family in the world

And while I am living with MS
(We are pretty sure that's what it is)

And I have migraines that knock me on my ass

And I have other things that make life-

well, lets just say interesting

I AM STILL ALIVE

And This moment is all we are guarenteed

SO I want to say, I LOVE YOU

Thank you

You mean the world to me

You make me who I am today

Without you, life would be dull

I hope you never forget that.

For now, it's time to fix dinner and relax

gonna hug my girls a little tighter

Gonna call friends and family

Gonna see life as a blessing

And live every MOMENT to it's fullest.

I hope you can do the same.