SO WHAT WEDNESDAY
So what if I get entirely too emotional over a game. - Especially when it's a game I enjoy, but kinda suck at. Playing Warmachine with Ruben this morning the stupidest little things set me off and had me in tears, all over a game. lol. It's sad really, cause in the end, I ended up winning. But still, sometimes I get super emotional when the game isn't going the way I want it too.
So what if it's taking me all day to organize my living room - which I don't even HAVE to do. I'm just doing it because I want to be able to use my fire place soon, and I had a bunch of stuff around the fireplace that I didn't want to have to move every single time I wanted to have a fire. So instead, I set out on an afternoon long mission to get it all reorganized so that I won't have to move anything but a single chair when I want to use my fireplace, haha.
So what if I'm actually excited that the woman I clean for on base is going to start handing out my e-mail and giving me referals - because I don't NEED the work. Not even a little now that the garnishment has fallen off. But it's nice to be recognized. It's nice to know that something that I actually ENJOY doing (I know, i said it, I enjoy cleaning. Who woulda thought, lol) is helping other people too. And it's nice to know that I"m doing a good enough job not only for repeat business with her, but that she's willing to refer me to other people who are looking for work too! OMG that feels awesome!
So what if I am ready for this year to be over - Like, seriously. The end of the year is both the busiest, and slowest time of year. It is busy because there is ALWAYS something going on, or some place we have to be. There are holidays, and family gatherings, and library trips, etc. ALWAYS. But at the same time, it seems to take the most time to actually get through. The months seem to drag on. And I'm sure it's because the end of the year is worse than the end of the month, when you have more month than money. You always seem to have more year than funds, and the end of the year is spent hanging around the house waiting for income tax returns to come in so you actually have the money to catch up and get out and do something. This upcoming year will be good too, because after income tax helps us catch up on the bills, and I have everything set out right, we will have quite a bit of extra each month with which to either save and make trips to arkansas, or to get out and go do something.
So what if I am super emotional that the one real friend I have up here that I get to actually do stuff with is moving to Texas - Mind you, it's because her husband joined the military, and he is stationed down there, so they are moving to stay with him. But it sucks. I am hopeing that the other friendship I seem to be making with another of Ivy's friends moms will get better too. Maybe then it won't be so damn lonely. It's hard too because her daughter was Ivy's first friend here at Highland Park, back in first grade. She fought hard to be friends with Ivy, and it's breaking my heart that she's gonna be gone. We are gonna make it a point to have them write back and forth, and keep in touch. Even calling each other sometimes. And we are gonna try desperatly hard to get down and visit them sometime. But still. They will DEFINENTLY be missed.
So what if I'm almost 30, and still homesick as hell - even after we've lived here as long as we have. You'd think it'd get easier being away from where you grew up, but it doesn't. We've been here for the majority of the last 8 years, off and on. Steady for the last 5-6 (don't ask me for sure, cause i really don't know. I am horrible with dates). And there are days like today where I miss down there so bad it hurts. I miss my best friend - LOVE YOU CASSIE! I miss my mom and dad, even though we didn't always get along. I miss my grandmas, and hate knowing that I won't get to see them all that often. I miss the rest of my family. I miss my Sifu and Taitai. And days like today, I just wanna jump in the car and drive down there and stay for a enough time to get to see each and every one of them.
So what if I am planning a kick ass party for my 30th b-day - Hey, it's a miracle that I made it to 30, lol. After all the crap I pulled, both in high school and after, the fact that I'm about to be 30 is a huge accomplishment, haha. SOOO, I am trying to plan a HUGE party. No idea where I'm gonna have it. Or even if anybody is gonna show up. HOPEFULLY we can have a party like Ruben's last few. Have people over to game, and watch movies, and eat pizza and just have a good old time. We have games that a lot of people can all play together now, so we won't all have to gather around the table in the kitchen. We can set up a table in the living room and play talisman, or settlers of catan, or zombies, or scrappers. Or even Munchkin. Just hang out and have a good time. :) It's gonna be EPIC, haha. Or at least I hope it will be. Oh, and Arkansas peeps, Be prepared to do something awesome when I do finally get to make a trip down there. It's gonna be EPIC too (somehow. Any ideas??)
So what if I am such a clutz - and keep running into things. I honestly think I might have broken my toe today, although I can't actually feel the toe itself. It aches, but doesn't HURT, like it usually does when i stub my toe. BUT, my toe looks kinda funny, and isn't bending like it normally does. On top of the other stuffs that I did yesterday, it's making for a fun evening, lol. And all while I'm trying to finish cleaning the living room. It looks good, if I do say so myself. But the last little pile of stuff is taking FOREVER to finish cause I just don't have the motivation, haha. But I swear, I stubbed the same foot like 10 times today. I hate not being able to feel my feet. BLAH!
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I knew it was gonna happen, but I am seriously sick of hearing people talk about the election, and what the results mean. Seriously people, it's over. What's done is done. Deal with it. If you don't like it, wait 4 years and change it! Until then, you're stuck with it. Don't like THAT? Leave the country for 4 years. Oh, you can't afford that? Then SHUT THE FUCK UP about it. Cause complaining about it doesn't change the fact it happened. K? Thanks.
It's the same thing I keep telling everyone. Complaining about something that's already happened is a waste of time and energy, and just frankly pisses me off because you can't go back and change it. And if there is something that you don't like that you CAN change, don't complain about it. Instead, get off your ass and off the computer and DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! The constant pointless complaining is just getting seriously old. Yeah, I did a lot of complaining when we were dealing with all that financial shit, but I was still getting off my ass and taking care of business. I was calling in every favor I had, working any job I could find, etc. I was making it work, instead of just sitting on my ass and expecting the world to take care of me. So freaking stupid, if you ask me, to just sit around and complain. People who feel entitled just piss me off. The world owes you NOTHING! Not a damn thing. Life sucks, for everyone. We all fight battles we wish we didn't have to fight, and deal with things we'd rather never experience. But at the end of the day, it's not about what we are going through, but how we handle it, that matters. That's what makes us who we are, period. And it's the people who stand back up and dust themselves off and keep moving that become something and someone that people want to be around. The people who fall and just lay there, expecting the world to come back and pick them up, will never amount to much. I just wish more people could understand that. Just sayin.
I am excited at the prospect that I might be picking up a few more houses. I HOPE that they will be regular, so we can have a regular extra income to help with food, and bills, and getting to get out and do things. The lady on base told me she's gonna spread my e-mail around and let people know about me. That's awesome. Seriously. I hope something comes out of it. With the extra money I'll get soon, I'm gonna get some actual business cards for her to hand out to people instead. So they will have the card when they want to get ahold of me. :) I think it'll be awesome. So send prayers that it actually happens!
I'm doing BBQ chicken with Mac and Cheese for dinner. Girls choice. I'm still shocked that they love BBQ sauce as much as they do. For the longest time they wanted nothing to do with it, lol. Oh well. Kids change. We all know that.
Anyway, I should probably get off here and finish the living room. Then get the chicken on to thaw, and clean the game area and kitchen back up. Maybe I can get a bath tonight, lol. I hurt all over. BLAH! :p
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