Just thinking

I've had a lot on my mind recently.

Thinking about "home". Which is kinda hard to think about. Not because it's bad or anything. But HOME isn't really where I grew up anymore. I mean, Yeah, I like it down there - to visit.  I love getting to hang out with people, and do silly little things like putt putt or the movies.  But at the same time, being down there all the time would be boring compared to up here.  And we've gotten so used to being up here, with something to do for gas money to get there any time we want.  Between swimming at his Hotel, or going to the lake, or going to the zoo, there's always something to do even when we are completely broke.  Down there, there's pretty much the park - or driving to another city.  Yeah, there's hanging out with friends - but that's so hit and miss sometimes (especially with the schedules we always end up on down there).

And then, there's the stress of actually finding a job good enough to pay for everything we need to pay.  Rent, bills, car gas, etc.  Down there, it's really hit or miss.  Unless you're willing to waste away at a factory or warehouse.  Because that's pretty much all there is down there.  There are THOUSANDS of people looking for HUNDREDS of jobs it seems like.  And to find a GOOD one is even harder.  He has a good job up here (yeah, it's not GREAT, but it pays the bills) that he's content working at.  Not happy, but he doesn't hate it either, and sometimes that's all you can really ask for right?

It's allowed me to be a stay at home mom with the girls.  And I wouldn't trade that for the world.  I know I"m gonna go NUTS when Desi starts school.  Gonna have to find SOMETHING to do.  Maybe try to go to school for something, or start my own business of some kind.  IDK. Can't be anything too physically challenging, cause i wouldn't be able to keep up.  But something. 

It's taken me 5 days, but I'm almost actually finished with everything but the stuffed animals in the girls bedroom.  And they are gonna have to be paired down GREATLY before we will be done with them.  Gonna have to find somewhere to store them because we don't have a lot of space in there.  But it's ok.  We will get it done.  The other stuff now all has a place, and shouldn't be too hard for the girls to actually keep up with!  AND, Ivy now has a desk to do her homework at so she doesn't have to sit in the floor or on her bed to do it.  Which MIGHT help her actually focus and get it done right, since it's not facing the TV, lol.  She's super smart, and I know she can understand a lot of what she's been doing, but she gets distracted and rushes through it, and gets a lot of it wrong.  Her grades AT SCHOOL are great, but when I check her homework it's hit and miss.  SOO, we need to figure out how to get ahold of THAT before it gets worse.  Especially when her state tests coming up soon!

Next weekend (not this upcoming one, but the one after) is the Med Faire in Norman.  Doubt we will have a LOT of money to spend, but we will probably try to go (as long as The Bilge Pumps are there!) so we can watch them and see a few other things that are going on. :)  I can't wait until our good car is up and running right, cause then we can actually make some longer road trips without it costing us an arm and a leg.  Like the Renn faire in Muskogee, or Tulsa, or Ft. Smith more often.  But it's ok.  Just being able to do stuff like that FOR FREE (well, other than the gas money) is really nice.  If there wre more stuff like that down that direction, we might think about moving back.  But I just really don't see that happening, cause they are adding some really freaking awesome stuff up here that Ft. Smith won't be able to compete with!

I'm just happy that most of the stuff that the girls room entailed let me sit in the floor and sort into other boxes/ totes/ etc.  That way it doesn't wear on me quite as much.  Cause if I had to do it all up and about the it'd take me a month! 

For now, I'm turning Jumpstart on the comp so Desi will stay occupied while I finish their bedroom.  Cause it's just basic stuff that's left, but with her in the bedroom it would take me FOREVER! lol.  She gets entirely too excited and distracting.

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THANK YOU FOR BEING SO DAMN AWESOME!

LYZ