Once again, it's that time where I have a lot to say but just don't have the time, or patience, to say it all to the people who need to hear it. SOOO, gonna post it all here. If you think it's about you, it just might be. Don't hesitate to leave a comment and I'll let ya know. Or message me. Just saying though, don't assume!
Thank you so much for everything you're doing for us right now. I know it's pretty much just paying us back for everything we've done for you. I know we will have to pay you back cause you needed what you gave us. But it was still a huge deal to me, and I just wanted to say THANK YOU.
Stop being such a BITCH!
The world doesn't owe you anything just because you're working full time and helping the family out. I mean, seriously, the rest of the world does the same thing, and is content (or at least mostly content) with what they are given. Just remember, there are people who work ten times as hard as you and get a hundred times less. So get off your damn high horse and stop being a bitch and realize you've got it a hell of a lot better than most of the world!!!
I miss you so much it hurts. I miss being able to hang out whenever we wanted. I miss the watching movies, and hanging out at the mall, and going to the park just to go. I miss being teenagers, without so many cares. I know we've discused moving back. Moving where we'd be close again. But the way life is going, I just don't think it's gonna be able to happen any time soon.
It is beyond frustrating that you expect perfection yet you refuse to do what you NEED to do to make things where they CAN be perfect. It is frustrating to say the least when you complain about something not being done the way it's supposed to be done yet you haven't taken the time to provide everything needed! It's frustrating that some people get off easy while others get treated like shit. It's frustrating that you change the rules every other week because you can't make your mind up, or because you feel like you have to be a friend instead of a boss until your boss steps in and says something. Then it's frustrating because you go from one extreme to another. Just make up your damn mind and stick to it. Just beyond frustrating!
It is exhausting the things you expect. Mentally, physically, emotionally. I just can't keep up, and it wears me out. Yet you still have something to say about it all the time. When I PHYSICLALY can't keep up, and I ask for help, or tell you I can't, and you still gripe and complain - I just don't know how to make you see. So that's a big part of why I just avoid you when i'm like that. It's not worth it to me anymore.
You have been amazing this last year. Helping me through some pretty difficult times. Emotionally AND physically. It's been nice to know that someone out there really gives a crap about it when I need the help.
Watching the world go around, I realize just how blessed I really am. I have amazing friends, amazing family (REAL, extended, and adopted) and I wouldn't trade them for the world. I realize just how difficult the rest of the world actually has it, and how blessed I truly am. We have a roof over our head, food in our stomachs, clothes on our back, a car that gets us from point A to point B, I've got an "employer" who understands that things are hard sometimes for me. So I just realize that the world could be so much worse, and there have been times where it REALLY has. So i count my blessings.
Super emotional right now. But a lot of it is just because of how much is going on. I'll be ok.
Gonna get ready for dinner, and watch some TV, and try to relax. Trying to calm down because this weather change is kicking my butt.
LOVE YOU GUYS!
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