I've been a fan of Glee from the moment I started watching it. I mean, I was never a part of any choir - show choir or otherwise - when I was in school. But I certainly knew what it was like to be the underdog. At least for a while. Once I made the awesome friends that helped make high school tollerable, it wasn't so bad. But there were still moments when I definently felt like the underdog. LOVED this Glee song, and thought I'd share it with you guys. (whoever still reads this. I swear, I don't think anybody does at all)
The last little while hasn't been BAD in the sense that it was bad last year. Constantly having to worry about rather or not we were gonna make rent, dealing with a crappy car, and having to borrow money, or bust ass, to pay the bills; Dealing with the MS when it first really started to affect my daily life. Etc etc etc.
It's just been a bit crazy.
Each day is a new adventure. Sometimes it's easier than others. But there's always some new and exciting challenge that we have to face and deal with. Between my bad days - where I have to have help getting dressed or getting up off the couch, the car and all it's fun crap, the kids and all their craziness, and the fact that we are still living paycheck to paycheck and I can't always make it to the doctor when i need to - it's definently been interesting.
But thanks to amazing friends, crazy but awesome family, and random people who step up to help out when they see we need the help, we are making it through.
I really am Blessed
I just hope that some day I'll be able to pay it forward and help out someone else that's in a tough situation. I know I'll never fully be able to repay anybody the way they deserve to be repaid. I just hope they know how much I love them, and how THANKFUL I am for everything they've done for us.
The last little while I've distracted myself writting - poetry, prose, stories, letters, etc (Some I'm sure I'll never show anybody, and some that I hope to publish some day) and listening to music. Lots of random music to fill the silence when the house is too quiet. Finding new artists, and new songs, that I LOVE is always fun for me.
I know I'm ready for summer vacation. Not that it will happen, but the prospect of actually getting to sleep in sometimes. Going to the zoo, for early walks, our out to the lake on a whim. Maybe even getting to hang out with friends again. During the school year it's so hard to make time to actually see anybody because we've always got conflicting schedules. But with summer vacation, it's not such a huge deal because we really don't have to set anything in stone.
It was AWESOME getting to hang out with Rachel and K-man. It's amazing to me how strong they both are. Her for having to watch her only son go through all that crazy hell, and him for going through it and coming out the other side super amazing. I swear, he's such a great example for my girlies, and I loved watching them run and play. And I know she's gonna have her hands full soon with a third kid. OMG that's just crazy to me! I know we've DISCUSED a third, but I just really don't know if it's ever gonna happen because of everything that's going on. Now, maybe if Ruben can find another job where he's not working nights and sleeping days and I could actually get some help once in a while when the baby gets up in the middle of the night or something like that. MAYBE that's something we can look into. Until then, NOPE!
It's hard to believe we are a month away from summer vacation! ONE MONTH! YAY! lol. I'm sure halfway through the summer I'll start getting excited about school starting again, but the's so much to do between here and there it's not even funny.
I gotta get off my butt and get Desi to the doc to finish her immunizations, and then go and enroll her for Kindergarten next year. I gotta get back to the doctor to get my meds again before I run out completely. I gotta get both girls to the dentist over the summer.
And Then i'm gonna start planning an actual FAMILY vacation for next summer. MAYBE even two. Gonna have to make sure the car is up and running good, but then we are talking about taking the girls one of two places. We are talking about going up to Branson and taking them to Silver Dollar City - I used to LOVE going up there! And we could set back a good chunk out of income tax to pay for gas, and hotel rooms, and stuff to bring home. And I think it would be fun. Physically taxing as hell, but fun. And the we are talking aboug Six Flags over Texas. See his sister and their cousins while we are down that way. And spend a good day down there. And they wouldn't even have to be CRAZY long trips. We could make them weekend trips. Let Ruben take off Sunday, drive down Friday after he gets off work and stay in a hotel, and then go Saturday. Stay in a hotel room sat night, and come back early Sunday, then he could get ready for work again Sunday night. So potentially we could do them both, and still not be strapped for money. Just have to see what actually happens. If nothing else, we will probably do ONE of the two. (Probably Silver Dollar City) if we can't get the car up and running by then. We could use the money we'd have used for a second vacation to rent the car, ya know? HOPEFULLY it actually happens. I remember those trips, and they were some of the most awesome trips EVER! :)
Anyway, it's almost 6, so I'm gonna get off the comp and start getting dinner together, throw the girls in the bathtub, and relax a bit before the evening fun starts, lol.
LATER MY LOVES
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